Companion of Death - A Doctor Who Fanfiction (Thasmin)

Interlude: Confessions

The song in this chapter is Shots, by Imagine Dragons. Strictly speaking, it doesn't really relate, but it's the song Echo is feeling. Most of it is quite ambiguous, just the bridge is a bit off. I sometimes find that when I'm in a sh!t mood, music helps. And often the most helpful music is just slightly unrelated to my mood.

I tried to make this interlude longer to make up for the two consecutive real chapters, but with the song lyrics, it's a similar word count. Apologies.

I opened my mouth to say what I needed to say, but no sound came out. Tears sprang into my eyes as I pushed past Missy and ran through the TARDIS hallways to find a room that I hoped existed. A music room. The ship knew what I was after through its telepathic abilities and brought me to the music room. Picking up a guitar, I took out my phone and pressed on the song I wanted to play. The first notes came out of the speaker and I strummed the chords, singing softly along with the song.

"I'm sorry for everything, oh, everything I've done..."

The percussion started, and I drummed on the body of the guitar with my palms. I went back to strumming when the lyrics began again.

"Am I out of touch? Am I out of my place
When I keep sayin' that I'm lookin' for an empty space?
Oh, I'm wishin' you're here
But I'm wishin' you're gone
I can't have you and I'm only gonna do you wrong.
Oh, I'm gonna mess this up
Oh, this is just my lu-uck
Over and over and over agai-ai-ain."

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Missy standing in the doorway. I went on to the chorus.

"I'm sorry for everything, oh, everything I've done
From the second that I was born, it seems I had a loaded gun
And then I shot, shot, shot a hole
Through everything I loved
Oh, I shot, shot, shot a hole
Through every single thing that I loved."

There. I had admitted that I loved her, and that I had ruined what we had. My love was not of the romantic sort, but a different type of love. And I had pushed her away because I didn't know what type of love that was.

"Am I out of luck? Am I waiting to break?
When I keep sayin' that I'm lookin' for a way to escape
Oh, I'm wishin' I had
What I'd taken for granted
I can't help you when I'm only gonna do you wrong.
Oh, I'm gonna mess this up
Oh, this is just my lu-uck
Over and over and over agai-ai-ain."

Missy moved into the room and took a seat on the piano stool. I pretended that I hadn't noticed and continued to the chorus again.

"I'm sorry for everything, oh, everything I've done
From the second that I was born, it seems I had a loaded gun
And then I shot, shot, shot a hole
Through everything I loved
Oh, I shot, shot, shot a hole
Through every single thing that I loved."

I barely noticed the tears that dripped onto the guitar as I started drumming on it again for the staccato syllables of the bridge.

"In the meantime, we let it go
At the road side we used to know
We can let this drift away
Oh, we let this drift away
At the bay side where you used to show
In the moonlight, where we let it go
We can let this drift away
Oh, we let this drift away..."

I went back to strumming the chords as the lyrics became smoother again.

"And there's always time to change your mind
Oh, there's always time to change your mind
Oh, love, can you hear me?
Oh, let it drift away."