The Suicide - Frerard

A funeral of all funerals

Gerard didn't make it, they tried to revive him but failed.

They did the best he could, and when they couldn't bring him back, that broke Frank into a million of pieces.

He'd never felt this type of pain in his life, he lost someone he wanted to love forever, he lost the love of his life.

And it was his fault because he wanted to be stubborn, and everything hits him after something bad happens, and it so happens that it was one of those moments.

He'll never be able to look at Gerard again because he'll be laying dead in a coffin somewhere -- thinking about Gerard's death made him disconsolate and squall in his hands at the memory of him.

Frank will never be okay again, he's never gonna find happiness -- he surely can't move on from what happened, especially since he is holding that burden on him and having that grief laying comfortably on his shoulders.

Thowing Gerard's death on his plate made him feel even more wretchedly miserable.

Just before the funeral he was in the bathroom howling in agony, his hands being wet with salty tears that held such pain within each one.

Even some people from school we're there, some students who felt bad about the hole situation given they we're apart of the reason.

It was despicable and Frank just wanted to kill them by hand but he couldn't act on anything because this day wasn't about him, this was about Gerard's death.

As the funeral went on and tears we're shed, it was time to share words for the dead.

Mikey couldn't talk because he was to emotional.

Ray said that he didn't really know Gerard that well but he could tell that he was a great person nonetheless.

Elena told stories about his as a kid, and cried during some of them.

Frank stood up to speak while Gerard laid in a coffin.

"Uh..hi, I'm Frank."Frank's voice began to break at the thought of speaking about this.

"I was uh-- I was Gerard's boyfriend."Frank could hear the murmuring of the people in the crowd, to be honest not many people came.

"H-he was the most shyest, kindest person ever. He was struggling, he uh, he had anxiety and depression. He was also dealing with bipolar --disorder but he wasn't getting any help for it at all."At this point Frank was breaking down.

"Gerard hung himself and he died alone." He heard a couple of loud sobs come from Mikey as he looked in his direction sadly.

"Gerard was in pain, and Gerard had to much exposure to the world, with that I mean he knew to much pain in the world. That pain was directed towards him, even me. Pain is one of the worst feelings out there, it's a pain in the ass for sure. Pain can be anytime, pain is everywhere. Pain is a feeing that will make you feel like you've just jumped off a cliff falling to your death, but it's slow, and painful and hurtful. That pain is the pain Gerard felt, because he told me that."Frank said staring off into the crowd.