We are stronger together

- 38 - Fertility

Taron

I rolled around and reached for Milly. When my hand just met the soft duvet, I slowly opened my eyes. The bed beside me was empty. I had to smile when I stared at my wedding ring. It had only been a few months and it still felt like yesterday.

"Daddy" I heard our little girl and looked to the door to find her walk inside with her teddy bear in her arms.

"Come here, darling" I lifted the duvet so she could slip under it.

She did, cuddling against me with her teddy bear on her belly.

"Oh, look who's there" Milly smiled.

"Mommy" Lou said excitedly "Come here"

She smiled and lay down next to Lou. We were facing each other and Lou was laying between us. Our little girl who was growing so much. Time seemed to fly by.

I saw worry written in Milly's features. We had tried for another baby for a while now, but it hadn't happened until now. I wasn't worried, because it might just take time, but Milly was starting to doubt herself.

"Are you excited for today?" Milly asked our girl.

She stroked a stray of hair out of her face.

"I am" Lou stated "We will go to the zoo!"

"That's exciting" I said in my exciting daddy voice.

Milly smiled.

Sofie and Richard would take her together with Nia. So Lou was around a girl her age. But I knew something was up as Milly dressed her, Lou had no clue of course. She was way too excited and told us all about the kangaroos and tigers she wanted to see.

Sofie talked to Milly when they picked her up and Richard and I had a quick chat. We saw each other on a regular basis and were really close.

"I'm pregnant again" Sofie announced excitedly and my eyes shot to Milly.

She seemed excited, yet I knew her well enough to know she was upset.

"Hey that's great news" I said "Congrats"

"I'm so happy for you" Milly smiled and we hugged both Sofie and Richard.

"That's great news" she said "How far along are you?"

Sofie smiled "10 weeks. I thought we'd tell everyone before I was starting to show and media was all over us"

Milly laughed "Sounds reasonable"

Richard was quite successful with Marvel while I was practically away from screen. But I didn't miss it. I just wish Milly was happier. Another baby wasn't everything. I was so lucky I had her and Lou.

"What's wrong?" I took her hand in mine after they had left to the zoo with Lou.

She looked down and didn't meet my eyes "I got my period this morning"

I exhaled "There is nothing wrong with that. We will just keep on trying"

She met my eyes and she seemed sad. She didn't let anyone see that but me. And I loved that she wore her emotions on her sleeve around me.

"Maybe it's just me -" she ran her hands over her body "Or my body. Maybe I just can't get any more children"

"You don't know that" I wrapped my arms around her "It might just take some time"

"But how much time?" she said quietly "We've tried for months now"

A thought sprang to my mind "I could get tested? Maybe I can't have children because of the accident. Or at least not the normal way"