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XLVI: Clingy

These days Yena unnie has been more clingy than ever. It's like she's sticking to me like glue. But I can't blame her. I heard Chaeyeon unnie is planning to go to Japan just to visit Kkura unnie. That's why my Yena unnie is bored without me.

"Joyul, what should we do today?" That's it, my free time is over now. "Mmmm, dont know. Any ideas?"

"I'll do whatever you wanna do" Then she clung onto me. Yesterday we went to a restaurant, then the other day we went to the park, and then we went to Han River. "It feels like we've done everything"

"Then how about we go somewhere near, like ... my room?" Then I felt her pull me. We entered her room as we went straight to bed.

We've been going out to lots of places these days. So the bed is more comfortable than usual. This is our usual go to, me and Yena unnie + bed = cuddles.

She hugged me tighter. "Your not going anywhere today" I just gave in and let her hug me for almost an hour.

"I'm bored, wanna watch a movie?"

Movie? I gave it a thought for a second.

"I would love to! But your joking right?" Watching a movie with her is one of the things that I badly want to do. But ... did she forget that I can't see. "Uhhh ... No"

"Unnie, I'm blind" I said as she laughed then hugged me. "You're not blind when you're with me. I'll be your eyes" As sweet as she may sound. I still dont think watching a movie is a good idea.

"We could just talk" I said as I felt her roll around the bed. "Talk? Not the greatest idea but if you say so, How about the garden?" I nodded as I let her lead us to the garden.

As soon as we entered I could feel the soft breeze hit my skin. I feel so calm right now. I feel like my life is already complete. Me and Yena unnie without any bother in the world.

Speaking of bother. I should tell her about my operation. It's gonna happen two weeks from now. I'll have to go and get ready. I wont be meeting her until after the surgery. I have to tell her.

"It feels nice here" she said as I felt her touch my hand. "Unnie, Let's watch a movie in two weeks" I felt her hold my hand.

"Anything you want" she said as she squeezed my hand. "I'll have surgery and ... I'll be able to see. Meaning I could watch you sleep and we could stare at each other. We can also watch a movie, I'll be normal"

"You are normal, You've always been normal. Dont worry I promised that i'll show you the world right? I wont ever break that" she said as I gave her a hug.

"Joyul, I love you more than anything. And i'll do anything for you. I know that we wont be with each other for a few weeks. But I promise you that after the operation, I will forever be with you. Dont miss me that much when your in surgery okay?" I nodded as I just kept on hugging her. "Yena unnie, I love you too"

Just because of my surgery, Yena unnie has never left my side since then. She kept on kissing me and hugging me. I loved it though.

Dr. Choi told me that I shouldnt feel that nervous about anything. Rather I should feel excited, since I can finally have a chance to see.

But what if the world that I want to see is different from the real world. It makes me a bit scared thinking of what might happen.

Eomma has also been coming to the hospital lately. She always comes and stays for an hour at least. We both have been waiting for this day to come. But I have this weird feeling that something wrong might happen.

I remembered Wonyoung saying that she'll always be one of my best friends. When she left, that made a giant hole in my heart. I dont know what to do now. I hope I could maybe see her face though. Maybe in a picture?

My friends Nagyung, Sian, Gyuri, Saerom and etc. (Friends from IdolSchool) also came and visited me. They said that we could go out and play once I could see again. I've always wondered how all of my friends would look like.

I wonder How I look like. Its been so long since I saw my face or my eomma's. I actually dont remember how both of us look like. But all of this is gonna change in two weeks. I hope.

"Yuri!!!" Here she goes again.

"I just wanna say that I love you" she said as she kissed my lips. I'm kinda used to it now, since she does this for almost everyday. "I love you too"

Then she hugged me, as in really tight. "I wont see you tomorrow. So this might be the last day i'm doing this. Make sure you listen to everything the doctor says.

I wont be near you. But i'll still ask how your doing. Be a good girl okay? I'm so exited that you'll be able to see again" then she pulled me in for a kiss.

This time it was longer. I could feel our breath mixing with mine. It feels like all my worries will be gone as long as i'm with Yena unnie.

I can't wait to see again and spend all my time with her.