I ain't the type of guy to forget where I started.
I remember my first album, man that was garbage.
Everyone laughed at me, and told me I couldn't be an artist.
I realized the talent dont come to you, its something you harness.
Now I'm sitting here trying to write music that actually matters.
It's hard to let go of the past, but we gotta move onto the next chapter.
I'm scared to jump into a new one cause I dont know what happens after.
I ain't about following the world, I'm a puzzle without a pattern.
I used to have morals, man I had a guideline.
But I dropped my care wit em, let that drain down the pipeline.
I started letting everyone get to me.
I started letting your view of me hittin' me.
Now I'm sitting here having an Epiphany...
What if I can change all my history?
What if everyone viewed me differently?
What if I took my pain and shared it with people that felt my imagery?
But my even using my problems to make my image, people still dont see them Visually.
Everyone wanna tell me I'm amazing, they feeding all this hype.
They ain't know the trash that raps behind the mic...
All these songs about my problems make me think about my life.
My moma told me I'm only a boy I Ain't know what the struggle like.
Screwed up some young loves but I'm tryna make em right.
They think because I'm young I ain't know how to make a sacrifice.
I been sacrificing my time with my friends, shuting off my device.
Putting my head down focusing on this mic, making this album precise.
"YESSIR, GIVE US THE BARS ADAM" But when y'all suffice?
I move out cause I ain't get support man I rolled dice.
Living another life to me its brand-new.
But this may not look good on me like a tattoo.
People sending me all these beats they want me to rap too,
They try n promise me fame but when they bring up my name they say "that's, who?"
I thought by being here I chasing my dreams, but ima sleep off tylenol.
They drugged me up, And now I see I've got too involved.
I'm just arriving into the rap scene, this look like a dope game.
They tell me I'm blowing up like flames hitting propaine.
But last night they was telling me I was corny I needed mo(re) brains.
Ya know when I put out a track, i make no gains.
Talking to my ma on the phone she still on cocaine.
She still the same when she left me, there ain't no change.
Thought since now she's alive she could be someone I keep close,
But she just shooting more holes in my heart, now it's just one deep hole.
Apologies fly out, yet she cant help but reload.
I showed her my music and she told "This deep tho".
Everyone was laughing yesterday now they on my side, Like I unlocked some cheat codes.
This is me saying I ain't earned it yet, Not me tryna flex.
I said I just arrived in this game, Im taking baby steps.
But if you step to me, I show you the effects.
And if you support me I show you the specs.
Like I said I ain't making money I ain't in it for the checks.
I'm in it for the inspiration, let's see what happens next.
Yeah.
Let's see what happens next.
