When Life Gives You Monica

Chapter SEVEN

We sit on the couch and start cuddling while watching the movie, it felt like home in his arms. 30minutes into the movie, Tyler and i start making out. The kiss was slow but so  tense that i couldn't even break out of it. His lips, soft as ever with a taste of cigarettes. I hated cigarettes but damn it felt so good! Tyler starts rubbing my boobs and mainly focuses on the nipple which instantly makes me wet. He rubs my boobs slow and gently but rubs them faster and pinches my nipples harder. It has a sting pain but i let it slide because that turned me on even more. He then goes down to my vagina and rubs it slowly. The only things that were on my mind were "Am i ready for this? Monica don't forget that you're a virgin" but then again, the sensational feeling made me forget about those thoughts. While i was moaning softly Tyler says, "Let's go to my room". As scared as i was, i decided to follow him to his bedroom. He pushes me on his bed and wastes no time in removing all my clothes and his. Before i knew it we were both naked. He starts kissing me on my neck and starts giving me hickies. I try to stop him so that i can tell him that I'm a virgin but he doesn't stop so i shout, "Tyler wait, I'm a virgin!". He looks shocked and says "Why didn't you tell me?". I go mute because i have no answer to give him. "Are you ready tho?" He asks. Again, i go mute and have a convo with myself in my mind. Am i ready? Does he deserve to de-flower me? I mean, were been together for almost 2yrs now. "Yes, I'm ready" i tell Tyler.  He quickly rushes to put the condom on and wastes no time in beginning with the sexual session. The pain! I couldn't bare it, i was in so much pain that i told him to stop... He listened to my command and actually stops. "But Monica, I'm still horny" he says. I tell him to go masturbate because i am in great pain. He gets agitated and pushes my left leg away when reaching for his clothes. He dresses up and leaves me alone in his bedroom with no word but a deep sigh. My depression was slowly crippling in but this wasn't the best place to deal with it. Left feeling stupid and guilty i dress up with the thought of desperately wanting to go home. I sit on his bed Thinking about what just happened a few minutes ago and i feel so disgusted at myself that i would let a guy take my virginity so easily. But i couldn't help it because i loved Tyler so much. After some minutes, Tyler pops in and his first words were "I'm sorry". Since i felt so guilty i just said "it's my fault, so it's okay". "What's the time, i asked him".
It's almost six pm
"Oh that's late, i think i should head home" i said.
"Can't you stay a little longer? Or even stay for a sleepover? Please babe" says Tyler. "I can't stay my mom will be worried sick about me". I felt so important for a minute, like wooow, he still wants to spend the night with me even tho i sexually disappointed him? All my guilt & sadness was washed away, for now. Emotions of love came back into my mind that always tricked me into thinking that Tyler was thee perfect guy. He gives me a kiss and asks me if I'm hungry, i tell him that I'm in a rush so no need to order food. I grab my phone and request a cab, while waiting for it Tyler and i start taking selfie. Kissing cuddling and eating sweets that were on the kitchen counter. My cab arrives and it's time to go home. Just like our first date, he smooches me but stops along the way with the honk of the impatient cab driver. My cab arrives and it's time to go home. See you next time beautiful, he says I enter the cab and roll my eyes at the driver because he ruined the perfect moment for me. Along the way, i call my mom just to check up on her because i missed her so much and the house has been a mess since she left, I drop the phone call with my mom because i was a few minutes from reaching home. I pay my cab fee and here i am, home sweet home.