Lust with my Father

• Can't

I woke up with this heavy feeling its like someone is on top or what. I opened my eyes and saw Jeff half of my body.

"Uhh Jeff, wake up. You're heavy.", I tapped his face.

"Hmm...", as he groaned I didn't realized that I kissed him on his forehead just like what he did to me last night.
"Good Morning", he said. I owe this man that I couldn't pay for life.

"Hi! Good morning.", I awkwardly reacted when he looked at me.

"Oh, sorry.", he said when he realized that his on top of me.

He slowly sits on the bed and fix his hair.

"I gotta go.", he moved his feet on the floor and I nod at him.

"Uhm. Jeff?", he stops walking and faced me.
"Thank you.", I added.

He walked towards me and hugged me tight.

"Anything just for you.", he whispered in my ear and it gave me that awkward feeling. This isn't happening, right?

I hugged him in return.

"I- I think I am liking you- your dad.", he paused for a while.

"Why not fall for me..again?", he's begging me when he looked at my eyes directly.

"You know me. I can't go back."

"Can't go back? How could you possibly say that you can't go back? E- even if you can..", he sighed.

"I don't know. I just can't do it.", I am saying this not because I can't. But because I am falling to your dad and to you. Those words is what I wanted to say but I can't find the strength to spill it.

"I ain't gonna lose you.", he tapped my shoulders and leave my room.

I can't show you the love I wanted you to feel.