Ako si Xandra Reiko Z. San Juan.I was born on December 27 and when I was 3 years old, I found out that my mom got pregnant by dad. They named her Xyryl Z. San Juan and she was born on October 31. I came from broken family.Xyryl and I found out that papa had a secret about his mistress. On my 7th Birthday, daddy didn't come because he's busy with his pregnant mistress and it truly breaks my heart.
I got pregnant when I was 23 years old and August ko nalaman na 3 months na pala akong buntis and that time habang nagta-take ako ng 1 year internship hindi naging hadlang ang pagbubuntis ko dahil sinusupportahan ako ng aking pamilya at kaibigan.
Sa sumunod na taon ay ipinanganak ko si Shaun noong February 26. Habang nagfo-focus ako sa licensure exam para maging licensed doctor hindi ako masyado nahirapan dahil nagtiwala at nag-pursigi ako sa sarili ko na makakapasa ako. Naging inspirasyon ko ang pamilya ko at anak ko. Dahil gusto ko tulungan ang kapatid ko maabot ang pangarap niya at mabigyan ng magandang buhay ang anak ko.
When Shaun turned 4 years old hindi niya parin maiwasan maitanong saakin kung nasaan ang real father niya, dahil ang nakasama niya lumaki ay ang mga kaibigan ng daddy niya. Sinabihan ko ang mga kaibigan ng ama niya na iwasan ikwento kung sino ang tunay niyang ama kahit ang tunay na pangalan ni Sean. Dahil natatakot ako na baka sa pagbalik ng kanyang tunay na ama ay may iba na itong gusto o pamilya.
Hindi ako nakaramdam ng galit sa ama niya kahit iniwan niya ako dahil nung araw na nalaman kong nabuntis niya ako ay nasa ibang bansa na siya. Wala akong komunikasyon simula nung umalis siya dito sa Pilipinas papuntang Canada pero pinilit kong intindihin dahil alam kong magtra-train siya para maging sundalo. His Dad wants him to be an army since he was a kid at gusto niya din iyon.
Too many years that I'm waiting for him to come back I don't feel his presence even his shadow. Too many pain I got since he left and no words to explain but I understand because I truly love him. Too many sacrifice and I must go on for my happy life even I got broke into pieces but my wounds are healing step by step. I tried my best to complete myself again.
I've been waiting for so many years for him to come back and yet there is no presence even his shadow.
I felt so much pain since he left me, there is no word could explain it. Even though he left me. I just acknowledge the situation we are in and I forgive him for that because I truly love him no matter what.
Many hardships I've suffered throughout the years but I need to move on to be happy, I need to fix myself into pieces, I need to heal for my wounded heart and forgive those who hurt me and that's how I move on but not completely, I need to focus on being a good mother for our son. I want him to be a best dad when he returns.
BINABASA MO ANG
Red String That Bind Us Together
Romance5 years ago,Xandra was brokenhearted when the love of her life leave for his future.Forgiveness is the best medicine to heal the pain. When Xandra Reiko Gonzalez wishes for love,she doesn't expect too much.She knows how to wait and she believes that...
