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Samuel
Cold water drops burned my overheated skin, the sting chasing away the terrifying feeling clinging to me from this nightmare I couldn't believe I had to endure. I came back home and went straight into the shower. Letting the water wash away the shocking memories I went through today. I honesty never imagined I would live something as brutal as seeing my friend, someone I came to really care about, lose control this completely.
Guzman truly lost it. He forcefully held Polo and tied him up. He tried to make him confess using violence. I honestly can't say I haven't been violent towards Polo but I sure as hell never came to the point of being that cruel. God knows I regretted it every time I hit him. But Guzman is suffering much more than I am; his sister was murdered at the age of 17. She died too young and too soon, and he couldn't do anything about it.
I try to take my mind off this bad dream and think of something good. I think of her.
I remember her face from earlier today and hit the wall with both hands. Carla was still reeling. I could see she was scared , so was I. But I still wanted us and I just couldn't believe she still chose to live another day without me. It shattered me.
Worse was the fact that I didn't care, since I had no intention of letting her go, I will have to find a way to make up for the fact that I was such a fucking mess ever since she left me.
My whole body starts to shiver, I switch the water temperature to a warmer degree and step deeper into the spray, hoping that this horrible feeling I had in my gut would go away. A shiver racked me again and my thoughts immediately shift to her.
I try to calm myself by thinking of her, placing my palms flat against the cool tile, I remember when she came knocking at my door one day, her hands covering her adorable face, trying to smooth her way so lovingly, but she had no idea she was already settled in the deepest corners of my heart. And neither did I.
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Pressing my forehead against the wall, I smile uncontrollably and absorb the warmth I felt just by allowing her to invade my thoughts. She chased the nightmares away. Replaced them with dreams of a future together. I felt calm instantly, peace spreading through me.
