Mare's Nests

November

"So? Any improvements?"

I didn't bother looking at Abrielle but I know she was referring to me. I continued tapping the joystick.

"By improvements you mean?"

"She means you and Ricci dumbass"

"Oh it's on freak, I'm gonna f*cking beat you"

I tapped the joystick harder and did some combinations, I was about to play the final blow when the monitor shut down.

"HEY I WAS ABOUT TO WIN"

"You both know I hate it when you're ignoring me, now let's talk about you and Ricci"

I looked at Isla and she just shrugged it off. She placed the game controller down and sat on the sofa.

"And just for the record if you did that while we're at my house I'm gonna f*cking kill you"

I laughed off as Abrielle mimic Isla's way of talking.

"So?"

"Hmm it's okay"

"Arghh the vague okay resurrects" I put the controller down and sat on the sofa.

"We had three dates and if I am to compare those dates to the ones I had before, I'd say it will top them all off."

"Wait does that mean he have a chance?" I looked at Isla and Abrielle, I shrug off.

"I do say he top off all of my previous ones but.. there's just no new feeling"

"New feeling?"

"I mean it feels like we were still just friends hanging out"

That's how I feel right now. It feels like I'm hanging out with my closest guy friend.

"What the hell? So he didn't made any moves on you?"

"Hmm well he tried"

"Like?"

"Like offering to carry my bag for him. Opening the door, draping a coat over my shoulders. Just the usual stuff."

I glance at the two of them and what made me laugh was their reaction. They look as if they had just the biggest cringe-y moment in their life.

"You really don't like him?" I smiled bitterly.

"Romantically? No."

Ricci is a dream guy every girl would've wished for. Caring, a tentative listener, he'll dedicate all of his time to you and he's surprisingly gentle but..

"I just don't know, you know how I am with my previous flings. My feelings keep on wavering day by day. I just don't want to hurt him so badly."

He's one of those few guys I never want to hurt.

"So you only view him as one of your flings?"

Abrielle's remark stopped me, I shifted my gaze. The truth is.. I don't know. Did I only view him as a fling?

"If so then he really is no different from your previous ones"

Maybe..
Maybe they're right.