Save me (Severitus)

Chapter 15

Author's Note:
Hey ya'll recently been watching God of War 4 and been really inspired, Kratos reminds me of Severus actually. So, if you also play video games this will make sense, if not I'm sorry for wasting you time!

Also, go check it out!!! Such a amazing franchise and universe, if you like mythology it's amazing, GoW 4 is Norse mythology and the three games before are Greek! Go check it out!!!

Xoxo,
Your loving author <3

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Snape's POV
    Voldemort, everyone believes the man is dead. I've heard the prophecy, in fact I brought it on a silver platter to Voldemort, "The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord approaches ... born to those who have thrice defied him, born as the seventh month dies ... and the Dark Lord will mark him as his equal."

     With the power? I do not believe the Dark Lord is dead, the small pulsation of magic in my left forearm, haunting my every movement. From what I heard of the prophecy Voldemort has merely marked him for death, he is still coming. Even if I'm wrong, it cannot hurt to prepare the boy.

    I cannot trust anyone anytime soon, I do believe Lucius is a good man, but he cares more about his family than anything else. He'd sell the boy and I out if it meant the safety of his wife and child, not that I blame him.

    I want to be good to Harry, I just don't understand sometimes we have moments of understanding, of good teachings, and other times we sit in a nauseating silence for almost an entire day increasing my anxiety and worry ever so slightly. I am typically a man of preparation, if you feel something is causing you to worry prepare for the absolute worst, then slowly as your defense increases, your worry decreases, but this worry is causing me to lose the little sleep I used to get. I hate it.

I don't know what happened I expected Harry to just be a normal cheeky boy that I would loath with every fiber of my being, but instead I got, to sit with the boy in eerie silence.

One meaningful conversation of ours, "Sir, in this book it says witches and wizards can become ghosts if they hold fear, guilts, and regret. Do my parents have ghosts? Can I meet them still?"

"No. Your parents did not harbor fear, guilt, or regret. They are gone, only rare artifacts can reach those who've passed on. Those artifacts are typically dangerous and a waste of time." I say bluntly, easier learning this way. I have already tried contacting Lily through the grave, it was utterly pointless and a waste of time.

"They don't feel guilty for leaving me?" He asks. How the hell do you answer that? Of course being a ghost is no small task and not as simple as that but I heard the child's heart break, and my own with it.

    "Being a ghost isn't as simple as that. They had a good life and they loved you, they knew that there would be people left to help you." I say in the kindest voice I can muster.

    "Oh okay," he says solemnly, before retreating back to his little area in the living room.

    This conversation haunts me just as much as Lily's death. I know that he still thinks about it, sad that his parents didn't leave apart of themselves for him. Why are children so stupid and complicated? Why did I choose to raise the kid? I'm an disgrace, Lily hated me, I have no right to raise her kid. I am here now and I can't back out.

We still have work to do.
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Authors note:
Hi... how y'all doing?
Sorry...
Anyways! I hope this explains the logic behind Severus's actions. I realize I neglected to really show how troubled the man is. As I have said many times updates are slow I'm lazy. I'm sorry.