JenLisa Shots Collection

Never Let You Go pt. 10

The summer dragged on; humid muggy days, mosquito infested nights. Lisa spent weekdays at work and evenings outside Jennie's apartment until it was time to go home and meet up with her creation of Jennie. The latter didn't come over every night; Lisa didn't have that much money, but most nights. Some nights were really good; Lisa really could feel Jennie there with her. Other nights weren't so good and would end in Lisa lashing out in anger and throwing the girl out of her place. But then school started back up and things began to change.

Once September rolled around her routine got more orderly. Jennie would come home almost every day at 4:30. Lisa began sitting out on her patio furniture so she had to see her when she went to her door. At first it frightened Jennie; she wasn't sure what exactly Lisa was capable of. Did Lisa want to hurt her? She really didn't think so, but she'd seen lots of crazy things on T.V.

She had told Lisa for the first week, every night, to go home and leave her alone; she threatened to call the police, but never did. She didn't want to get her into legal trouble, especially if she was on parole. She knew she was being too nice, too easy on her, but she couldn't help it, it was her nature. Lisa had hurt her with her lies, but after a while of this she began to rethink her feelings for her. The idea of Lisa using her and manipulating her was fading. She began to realize that Lisa's feelings for her were strong, whatever they were; love or obsession, she wasn't sure, but Lisa wasn't bluffing when she had said she wouldn't let her go.

Lisa told her every time that she loved her, pleading with her to talk to her, to take her back. Jennie began to ignore her, she wouldn't look at her, and she just unlocked the door and went inside. Lisa would always get up from her chair outside and stand by the door as she unlocked it. Lisa would lean against the wall and watch her, even though it was only for 30 seconds. She always said hi and asked 'how are you?' Jennie hoped maybe ignoring her would cause Lisa to realize it was really over and she could move on. She didn't want this for Lisa, not for either of them. She didn't want her to know but it was so hard for her to see Lisa.

A part of her was angry about the lies and scared that Lisa was an ex-convict. But another part of her, a big part of her, still loved her. Still found her incredibly sexy and gorgeous. A part of her strangely was turned on by her past; the fact that she was such a hardheaded woman, but had let her in. Had let her guard down and been sweet to her. Had treated her with kindness and sweetness that she had never had with any other person.

And the sexual attraction they had was undeniably strong. She still thought about Lisa at night, when she was alone, touching herself. She thought about her arms and her  chest. How good she felt when she was on top of her. How protected she had felt with her. Knowing no one could hurt her with Lisa by her side. But she had never considered Lisa could be the one doing the hurting.

Jennie began to notice that Lisa wasn't just at her home after work, sometimes on the weekends she was at the store when she was; if she out to lunch, Lisa would be sitting at a table nearby. Lisa never said anything to her, just kept her distance and watched her. So Jennie ignored her and went on with her business. After about a month of this, Jennie began to accept what was happening, it just became a part of her day and it didn't bother her anymore. She didn't get nervous walking up to her door; she didn't worry when Lisa was watching her eat dinner with friends. She just accepted it as Lisa being Lisa.

October came and autumn was Jennie's favorite season. She loved the beautiful colors of the trees, the smell of the wind on a cloudy, cool, evening, the sound of the dried leaves rustling across the parking lot at work as she walked to her car. This time of year put Jennie at a sense of ease. It made her relaxed and feel warm inside, even though the weather was cooling. She couldn't explain what it was about fall, but it just did something amazing to her.