La Maison 2: Differences (Complete: BDSM mxm)

March 19

A/N: some soft and fluffy. Ellis deserves it. Frankie might eventually deserve it. 

Francois

"I'm glad you're happy, Ellis," Gray says during our third session with him, "and you, too, Frankie. I think you reacted to the news differently than you would have done a few months ago."

"I've been thinking, and maybe you can guide this, Gray. I'm wondering whether Ellis might want to find his other brother and sister. They're almost adults now."

"I don't know if I want to, Suzu."

"Why not? I'm not judging your reticence, Ellis, just trying to explore your motivation." Gray leans forward.

"They won't even know me. And I know I don't want to find my mother."

"And what's your motivation, Frankie? For suggesting it." I've been thinking, because I knew he'd ask, so at least I have an answer.

"Ellis being happy about Nikolai reminds me that neither of us really have family. My relationship with my parents has never recovered from moving to the States, and even though I love my siblings, I think I'd fooled myself about us being close. I don't even know which African country my brother is currently in. I should do something about that. So, finding Nikolai; it seems like it might be something Ellis would think of, as the therapy he's been having has shown him that being without a family has affected him."

"Is it something Dex could do for you?"

"Ellis, baby, can I ask Dex to look into it? You won't have to approach anyone. But maybe it will give you some closure on your past."

"Okay. Nikki asked if I want to meet my father too. I don't want to yet, but maybe later."

Gray nods understandingly. He isn't that close to his own family, but I know he thinks it's important to have strong relationships outside the romantic ones, and he is close to his friends.

"And how's everything else? You're talking more, that much is clear."

"We are," I hug Ellis into me, always wanting to feel his body against me.

"The talking's great, Gray, but when can Suzu spank me again?" Ellis pouts cutely and Gray bursts out laughing.

"You bored of vanilla?"

"Not exactly. It's as great as ever. I could just use some spice again, now that we're talking properly and I know I would feel okay to speak to Suzu if anything wasn't right." It strikes me that, not that long ago, I'd have been furious if any sub of mine had come out with something like that – the suggestion that I might fuck up. But, the opposite of it bothering me, now I'm just happy Ellis has regained the confidence to know what he wants and to say it with no shame or doubting of himself.

When I take Gray to the door, he turns to me.

"Have you stopped training yet?"

"I have, but I'm getting a backlog. Ellis doesn't mind me continuing with the Dom training, but that's only because he doesn't know what it entails." When I train Doms, I have a rule that they need to understand what their subs go through, so that they treat them with that in mind. So sadistic Doms who want to come through the club have to know what the lick of the whip feels like, guys who have specific fetishes need to understand the impact. I haven't fucked a Dom in a long while, but I have a wide variety of toys that get used on them, and it's definitely sexual. To be honest, that's something I need to come clean to Ellis about.

"I've been thinking, actually, and I'm hoping you and some of the guys will take on some training. I have one boy who's just applied who shows a desire for bondage training. He's cute, too."

"Not while I have a contract, Frankie. Ask Chris, he's good at the basic bondage stuff. Or ask me again when my contract with Owen is done."

"Will it be done?"

"You know it will. He wants someone who'll look after him. You'd be a better option than me."

"As if! I terrify the boy." I chuckle, though it's weak. I'm aware that a lot of the subs are scared of me. I'm stern and I don't smile that much. I've always thought it's necessary to gain their respect. But I love those boys and want the very best for them, and it kind of hurts when they shake if I speak to them; not as much as when Ellis was shying away from me, but it's still not great.

When I get to our bedroom, Ellis is reading on the bed – naked, his long legs crossed at the ankle and his cock semi-hard. I rush through washing up and dive onto the bed, making him giggle and fling his book to the side. He wraps his arms around my middle, snuggling in and nibbling kisses up my side.

"You're in a good mood."

"I am, baby. I'm here with you and you're smiling. That's all it takes." He smiles even harder at that and I hug him to me, slightly crushingly, but I need to express it and words alone aren't enough. "I am fucking crazy about you Ellis. You're perfect, in every way that's important. I'm sorry I was such an insecure dick for so long, and that I treated you like I wasn't trusting you to look after yourself. I do. It was myself I was scared of. I was scared of fucking up and pushing you away. I need you. And I want you. Forever."

Ellis pushes up, his arms strong, a look of shock on his face as he stares down, his eyes glistening with unshed tears.

"Baby?" I try to hug him to me, but he sits up, curling his legs around and resting his hand on my chest.

"Suzu, I think that's the first time you've ever freely apologized to me without being forced into it in some way, and that was amazing. I felt that, here." He taps his heart and finally lets me pull him down so I can hug him like I want to, holding his face between my hands and kissing all over his face while I wrap my legs over his to hold him to me.

I just want to be close to him, as close as two people can be. I don't deserve him, that much is obvious. He's the best of everything – strong but willing to give me his power, even able to forgive me, so freely, for the way I abused that power; a mistake I'm determined to never make again. It's not something I'm used to – admitting errors in judgment, being conscious of fallibility. It's almost as if all these years as a Dom have had a layer of fake, because how can I be the best at control if I can't even see my own limitations?

I turn him, now, snuggling into his skin, smelling deliciously warm, smooth, golden. I could prefer this to boring oxygen, even more because he somehow also smells of fresh air and open skies. Perfect. He moans lightly, temptingly, as I roam my hands over his chest, just flicking his nipples to taunt him, causing gratifying movements in his hips, increasingly desperate as I just tease. Finally, when he's writhing, looking so, so beautiful and strung out but strangely peaceful, I slide a lubed finger in, and restart the soft torment.

When I slip inside him, no resistance because he's so relaxed, I just move gently, my arms hugging his back to me, lazily nuzzling his nape, nipping the velvet skin, all the tenderness in my heart showing in my movement, his orgasm flowing through him with a whimper and a tightening, finally pulling mine from me almost as an afterthought.

"I love you so much, Ellis," I whisper, not even sure if he hears me until I hear a sleepy murmur and the quietest response.

"You are my whole, Suzu."

A/N: so, I'm not always great at spotting actions that are not cool. Ellis has totally forgiven Frankie, and I'm aware it might feel like he's done it too easy - but through his character I think it fits that he would. He loves Frankie and certainly doesn't want to lose him, and I feel as though he has enough worse shit that happened to him so he views this as 'not that bad, considering' (even though I think the audience can see it was pretty damn bad). He maybe should have given Frankie more shit - but it isn't who he is.

On a separate note, but still on the 'not cool' side - I am v bad at potential triggers. Please do let me know if I've put anything in that you feel should have a TW - I will happily update. (Not this chapter, I don't think, at all - but I know I've missed them in the past and will probably do so again.)