La Maison 2: Differences (Complete: BDSM mxm)

April 13

A/N: I loved this, way too much 🥰 Just what Dae needs. 

Dae

I couldn't believe that Chul-moo came into the club last night. I thought I was going to vomit when I saw him. I hated not being truthful with Daddy, but the relief I felt when he believed my excuse made me lightheaded. I know if I'd have told Daddy even a bit of the truth he'd have done something. He's strong, and brave, and telling him how awful Chul-moo is, and what he does to people who go against him, wouldn't have been enough to stop him.

I have to do something, soon. Stop Chul-moo. If he's gone, everything's better. I know that whatever vendetta he feels against Master François won't carry forward to whoever takes over from him. For some reason, this is personal for him. The certainty that thought brings – that I'll finally do something – makes me feel happier.

I still feel guilty for hiding things: Daddy and I talked around the issue, but I managed to avoid anything specific. Though something interesting came out of it, at least.

I see Nikki in the sub's locker room and give him a hug.

"Come to watch me get punished, have you?"

"I thought you were doing a public scene?"

"Oh we are," I grin, winking at him.

"So what are you being punished for?"

"I'm not, not really. Daddy thinks I'm being too anxious, and he thinks I need management spankings, and he thinks I get off on humiliation, so he's doing it in front of everyone."

Nikki looks slightly horrified for a moment, but then he stops, his brain obviously catching up.

"Daddy?"

"Yeah. That's part of it. I have to call him it instead of Sir."

"He's making you?"

"Not exactly. It's what I call him when we're scening." And all the rest of the time, when I can get away with it and there's no one too close. Thing is, he thinks I don't do it more openly because I was embarrassed, but really it's because I didn't want to embarrass him. I'm ecstatic that he loves it, though it won't have the humiliation aspect he's hoping for. I'm proud he's my Daddy and, yes, I want everyone to know.

He sat me down earlier today, to talk about the scene tonight. He explained that he thinks I get wrapped up in my worries, and he thinks regular spankings will help me control the hysterical feelings I get when it happens. I'm more than happy with that. I love getting spanked. Everything about it; the dominance from him, the sparks of scratchy itch, the settle into the burn, the fuzziness, the way I can feel it for so long. I see his point about it giving me something to focus on, something, that, in my case, is pleasurable.

But then he suggested that it might have more impact if everyone knew that I was so needy I had to have them. That's how he said it: 'needy'. But he was leaning close to me, and his eyes were dark, and he looked a whole lot like he wanted to pin me down and take, and I wanted to let him, so at least I know he likes how damn needy I am.

When we'd managed to stop being so distracted (whoops) he actually explained it properly. He thinks I might get off on being humiliated. At first I was a bit grossed out. I did tell him I already know what it's like to be humiliated, and I'm not a fan, but he explained humiliation as having different parts, and I don't have to like all of them. And then he said because I like to push things he suspects that I might like other people who are into the same kinds of things we are to know when I've pushed him hard enough to get a punishment, and it might make it more intense for me.