The Tipping Point (Kylo Ren X Reader)

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You regained a semi-conscious state and your body noticed that it was being carried. You forced your eyes open enough for you to see who was carrying you. The black clothing and mask confirmed that it was Kylo and your mind relaxed, allowing you to drift back into unconsciousness now that it knew you were safe.

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Your dream made absolutely no sense. When it began, you were somewhere that had a lush green forest. A small child with jet black hair around the age of two toddled out of the woods. She had sticks in her hands and began making them float around as if that was what every two-year-old did. You knelt to speak with her but before your lips could part you were whisked away. Suddenly you were on the bridge. Distorted voices spoke around you. "Will she live?" One asked. "It's too early to know, we can't-" you heard the unmistakable thud of a body falling to the floor and before you could try and examine it, the scenery changed, yet again. This time you were floating through still darkness. Suddenly a deep voice spoke to you. "For once in his life, the boy has done something right. Of all the people he could pull to the dark side, he chose you. And yet I feel he does not realize your true potential. You could be stronger than him my child, you could destroy him." Destroy him? Was this person talking about Kylo? Why would you ever want to destroy Kylo? As if he could read your mind the voice responded, "Because if you don't destroy him, he will destroy you. His mind seeks peace in a battle that has raged in his head for so long. He would do anything to get it, even destroy those dearest to him. He paused for effect. And I believe, you are what he holds most dear, child." He cackled menacingly and even after you knew he was gone from your mind the chilling laugh remained.

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The bright lights of the infirmary woke you from your unconscious state. Your brain immediately flew into defense mode at the sight of an unrecognizable person beside you. You grabbed them by the neck tightly and they gasped.

"Please... Your Majesty," he wheezed. "You are on the Finalizer. I'm your doctor."

Your brain relaxed as it realized where you were and you let go of his neck. The doctor fell to the floor struggling to regain his breath. Your eyes searched the room for something familiar. You were in a hospital bed attached to numerous wires, one of which pumped a yellow liquid into your veins. The beeps on the monitor showed that your heart was beating and that your pulse was low. The room was small and had only one simple metal chair in it. In it sat Isa who nodded reverently to you then returned to the knife she was sharpening. You sighed unhappily as you realized who was obviously missing from the room. Of course, he wouldn't come to see you, why would he? You shook the twinge of pain away, finally finding the ability to speak

"How long have I been asleep," you croaked.

"Not long, a little over a day. Whatever you did it drained almost every single bit of energy out of you. We've had you on an intense regimen of IV fluids and steroids."

All of a sudden a wave of claustrophobia hit you. You wanted to be anywhere but here, lying helplessly in bed for anyone to see. Every fiber of your body resisted it.

"Well, I feel fine now. I would like to go to my chambers now."

The doctor stood, making sure he was out of reach before speaking again.

"I am afraid I can't let you leave. I have direct orders saying that until you are one hundred percent healed you must stay."

You huffed, "whose orders?"

"Commander Ren's, Your Majesty."

You crossed your arms trying to muster a menacing look, "I don't care what he said if you don't let me leave I'll..."

"You'll do exactly what I said," Kylo stomped into the room and removed his helmet.

You tried to sit up and the doctor moved to help but you swatted him away. Even this tiny amount of effort was tiring you but you forced yourself to act as if you were okay.

"I'm fine," you countered.

Kylo's eyes were cold and unyielding. "Damn right you are. Less than two days ago they couldn't even find your pulse. Did he tell you that?"

The doctor quietly interjected, "I didn't want to worry her sir."

Kylo sneered, "She needs to be worried. She needs to know that her dumb actions have consequences."

The doctor was trembling slightly and you almost felt bad for him, he probably thought his life was in danger. "Yes sir, I-"

"You're dismissed," Kylo snapped.

The doctor scurried out of the room and you nodded to Isa that she should leave as well. She stood and gracefully exited, unfazed by Kylo's menacing aura. Kylo stepped towards you, crossing his arms.

"Kylo I'm fine," you repeated. "I have a pulse, I'm breathing, and I don't want to be in this room any longer."

Kylo said nothing. He stared you down as if he was trying to decide if you were even worth his time. You wondered what had caused this change in attitude. Hadn't he just called you beautiful a few days ago?

Finally, he broke the silence. "Why did you do it?"

"Do what? Pull the water out of the lake? Because it was what had to be done," you stated firmly.

"Even though it was going to kill you," he asked incredulously.

You sighed, "I didn't know that it was going to kill me. I thought I would be fine." Kylo was now towering over you and you rolled your eyes, "can you please just sit down."

Kylo's face turned colder than it had been before and you averted his gaze, scared that his eyes alone would turn you to stone.

"When you stop trying to fucking kill yourself, come talk to me."

He was angry but not in a yelling way. It was like he had lost all respect for you and the thought alone made you feel like a piece of your heart was being chipped away.

"I don't need a wife who actively puts herself in harmful situations every chance she gets."

Kylo turned and stomped out of the room, slamming the door behind him. You sat there mulling over what he had just said. Sure, you'd had fights before and they had been pretty bad, but this was different. You silently wondered if he would ever forgive you. But how could you defend yourself against something that wasn't even your fault? Tears spilled down your face and you let them. Part of you wished Lenna was here to slap some sense into you. She'd probably remind you of her offer to assassinate Kylo. The thought made you laugh lightly. Finally, dehydration and exhaustion set in and you fell into an uncomfortable sleep.