The Tipping Point (Kylo Ren X Reader)

Degenerate

To your surprise, Kylo sat. "You have one minute to talk and then I'm walking away."

You rolled your eyes. "First of all, you can give me some damn respect. I just smiled my way through two hours of pretending to be happily married to you. Do you know how insulting that is, Kylo? Having to pretend that you love me? It's humiliating."

You stepped towards the window, hiding your struggle to keep your emotions at bay.

"So what do you want? Revenge, or something?"

You shrugged your shoulders as you focused on the view. "Bold of you to assume I haven't already gotten my revenge. I am quite the commodity, you know."

Kylo was on you in a second. He spun you around and pinned your hands to the wall.

"Who is he," Kylo growled.

You raised an eyebrow as if that was the dumbest question he had ever asked.

"He is a she," you replied coolly. "And I am not telling you."

"As far as anyone knows, we are still married. If you were found out..."

"Is somebody jealous?" You taunted Kylo with your eyes.

He stared angrily into your eyes for a few seconds before responding.

"No, I am not."

You ran your eyes down his body and bit your lip. "I think you are jealous," you decided.

"I'm not," Kylo maintained.

"Then why do you still need me?" You pressed your hips into him, his hard member noticeable even through the layers of clothing.

"Who is she," Kylo stalled.

You rolled your eyes. "It was nothing but a meaningless kiss, Kylo."

"That's not what I asked."

You closed your lips tightly in a sign of defiance and Kylo pulled away.

"That's fine, I don't care anyway."

He stormed out of the room and you watched as he walked away. You would miss that. The knowing that no matter how many times he left he would always come back. As much as you fought to bury your emotions, they still presented you with the cold hard truth: you would miss Kylo. You wished that you could forget about him even if it was for only one night.

A maid opened the door jarring you from your thoughts. You pushed off of the wall, standing confidently by the window.

"Oh, I'm so sorry. I didn't know anyone was still in here," she offered shyly.

"Don't worry about it. I was just leaving. You walked toward the entrance but stopped in the doorway as an idea occurred to you. You turned to face the maid, "if I wanted to explore the city how would I go about doing that?"

The maid smiled kindly and you grinned in return, basking in the idea of an adventure in the beautiful city that hid many secrets.

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You stepped into a large building that was lined with small shops selling everything from food to ship parts. The maid had been kind enough to find you a dress appropriate for weekend city life in Cloud City. You wore a short dress that hugged your curves in all the right ways. The sparkly green shone in the sunlight and you savored the pure freedom of being alone. You spent countless hours walking through the various stores buying whatever you wanted. You figured that you might as well run up a bill for the First Order after all the shit they put you through. You had your hair cut and styled into waves and got your nails trimmed into perfect knife-like points. You watched from a window as the sun began to set. You wished you could just freeze this moment and live in it forever. No responsibility, no Kylo... you shook your head, You needed a way to ignore your feelings. You glanced at a sign plastered on one of the walls. It advertised a popular nightclub and you decided that was the best way to waste away the night. You had your bags delivered to Jabari's home and found transportation to the next leg of your spree. You were delivered to a building that was smaller than most but still rather large for its purpose. You stepped through the glass doors and into the strobe lights of Cloud City's hottest club. People of all shapes and sizes danced to the lively music and you walked towards the center where the bar was. You sat on one of the stools and called a bartender to you.

He gave you a small grin while resting his eyes on your cleavage for a little too long. "What can I get you, pretty lady," he casually flirted.

You feigned a seductive smile and leaned towards him. "Something strong. Open a tab."

He handed you a shot glass full of liquid and you picked it up, downing it in a second and coughing at the strength of the drink. You sat the glass back on the table and stood, grabbing the closest person to you and dancing with them. Your mind whirled in and out of focus as the room spun around you. You took shot after shot, eventually drawing a small crowd that encouraged you through at least ten more shots. You basked in the attention and were more than happy to meet their wishes. You watched the strobe lights blink rapidly as you consumed yet another shot. The more you drank the less you remembered what you were drinking to forget. You danced until you couldn't feel your feet anymore. You finally slumped on a barstool as the adrenaline began to fade from your body.

"Why don't we get you home little miss," the flirty bartender suggested.

You struggled to phrase together the words you were trying to say. "No, no. No, I don't wanna." Your words strung themselves together in an ugly strand of sounds. "I don't wanna leave. I'm fine."

A man slid into the barstool beside you but your head was spinning too much to notice. You stared intently at the various bottles behind the counter watching as they changed colors with the strobe lights.

"I will get the lady back to her home."

"Do you know her? How do I know you aren't just trying to take advantage of her?"

The man emitted a deep laugh. "She's not the type of girl you should try anything with. She might kill you just for pissing her off."

At the word 'kill' your mind perked up out of its foggy state. You looked from the bartender to the man beside you and brightened.

"I know him," you giggled. You leaned towards the bartender trying but failing to whisper to him. "I've had sex with him before. It was good, it was really good."

The bartender shook his head in annoyance and pointed to the blurry figure beside you.

"Get her out of here. She's scaring off the customers."

Your brain registered that you were being led through the crowd and out the door. You staggered uncontrollably as your vision faded to black.

The next time your mind was coherent you were being carried into the living room of your chambers. You wondered if you had passed out but your thoughts were stalled when you felt your stomach began to ache. You jumped out of the strong arms holding you and ran into the bathroom, barely making it to the toilet before your stomach contents exited your mouth. Tears bit at your eyes as you retched painfully. When the room stopped spinning you realized someone was holding your hair while you emptied the rest of your guts into the toilet. Once you were sure you were done puking, you leaned back. Your balance was uneven and you fell into what you realized was someone's chest. You hadn't yet bothered to register who this person was but you finally looked up into the deep brown eyes of Kylo Ren. You shivered and closed your eyes, brain relaxing now that it knew you were safe. You felt yourself being propped up and you opened your eyes slightly. You watched numbly as Kylo gingerly peeled your dress off of your body. He gently pushed you into the shower and pressed a button. Water streamed from the ceiling and he calmly rubbed soap into your body. He washed away the layers of sweat and grime from your body which made you feel immensely better. As he continued cleaning your body you heard him muttering under his breath. If you weren't so disoriented you would almost swear you could understand what he was saying but it didn't make sense.

"I'm so stupid. Dumbest idea I've ever had. Why the hell did I leave you? So stupid..."

Your mind brushed the dialogue off as something you had dreamed up because there was no way he would actually say those things. Kylo turned off the water and wrapped you in a towel. At some point, he had removed his cape and armor and was only standing in his undershirt and pants. You shivered even though the air was well heated. Kylo peeled his shirt off his body and pulled it on to yours in an attempt to warm you. He picked you up and carried you out of the bathroom and into the bedroom, carefully placing you in the bed and covering you with the layers of sheets and blankets. He turned to leave but you called after him.

"Kylo wait." Your speech was still slightly slurred and you struggled to get anything out. "Can you stay with me, please? Just... Just one last time."

He nodded and removed his belt before crawling into bed next to you. You snuggled into his chest and he held you as reality dissolved from your mind.