Through The Pain

36 | Worries

Nate

"Look what you've done Nate! You just successfully made Catherine think that you regret that video call ever happened. That you regret meeting her and falling in love with her!"

My Mom's words were ringing in my ears.

It keeps repeating in my head until now. Even after hours.

And now I can't find my Catherine.

I didn't mean it like that. I didn't mean to sound like I regret it. Hell, that video call was the most important thing that happened to me. I just hope that it happened in a different circumstance. I wished that Mom and Dad just kept it a secret, that they shouldn't have said that it was done purposely.

But still, whether it was done accidentally or purposely, I wouldn't regret that it happened. Damn! I wouldn't regret seeing that image of her in that video. Mom was right when she said that I needed someone to make me happy again and complete. And she is right when she says that Catherine is the perfect person for it.

I will keep that image of her forever even until the next life. Why would I regret that moment? And even if that call didn't happen, I am definitely sure that I will fall in love with Catherine under different circumstances.

I am such a jerk. I shouldn't have snapped at my Mom just because of that. I've only thought of that now. I just hated the idea that I was played. That's all. And that made me lose my Catherine.

I tried to run after her but I already lost sight of her. Now I don't know where she is.

She is not even answering my call.

What if she is in pain? There is a great possibility that she is, emotionally and hell even physically.

What if she is having a flare-up, again because of me? What if she passed out alone in the streets? The thought makes me want to kill myself.

I promised to take care of her, to keep her happy but on the test of our relationship, I did the opposite, I failed her.

I called Grace and asked her if she might know where I could find Catherine, she cursed at me Boss or not. I found out that she was the one who called when she left and Catherine hung up on her.

Grace is mad at me and calling me names. Even telling me that I don't deserve Catherine. I know she is Catherine's best friend and she only thinks and cares for her. I don't mind her being mad at me, hell, I myself is mad at me.

Still, Grace is helping me think of a place where I can find Catherine.

I've been to her apartment, but it was obvious that she's never been there.

I went to my daughter's school but she's never been there as well.

Not even to her support group.

I already had my security team look at the CCTV footage at my company and found that she is not in the building but she did take a taxi a couple of meters from the building.

I just hope that she didn't go to her doctor. I know how her doctor feels about her and the last thing I want is to have him see how much of a failure I am as Catherine's boyfriend.

I am driving my car running around the city hoping to find her somewhere. Maybe she was just sitting somewhere or eating.

Then my phone rings, seeing that it is Grace, I immediately press the green button and connect it to the Bluetooth of my car.

"Try the cemetery," Grace said and I immediately made a U-turn. The cemetery is on the outskirts of the city. Grace texted me the details and I drove off.