The Secret

Ch.6 | Clandestine Decision

I don't want Brianne to think I'm pissed at her for asking me to do... that. I think I might consider if her brother wasn't also my best friend. If something bad were to happen, I could never forgive myself and I know things would be weird between Fabian and I. I think it would be worse if Fabian didn't exist. If something were to happen, I would be left with no one. Mase, Sky, and Jenn are no where near as close as Fabian and I are. Sarai is my cousin, but she's distant in her life with my own. I am definitely not close to Sarai as cousins should be. All I have in the world that I can truly trust, are Fabian and Brianne. They are my best friends, my family.

"Bri?" I say carefully and quietly.

"Yeah, Trav?" She answers in her ever soft voice that I can tell is cautiously anticipating me snapping verbally. Not today, beautiful.
I reassured her with something patented in our Travvie & Brianne world, "We can talk about this tomorrow. I promise. Right now, I'm tired and I have to do some things for a few hours in the morning. I'll come by with lunch. Cool?"

I know this wasn't an easy thing for her to just come out and ask me like I was some stranger. The look on her face was across between mortified, embarrassed, and scared. I had already cue'd up my Uber. I needed to make this as less awkward for her as this just became for me. "So.. what should I bring over for lunch? Burger Bar? I could go for one of their milkshakes. It's gonna be a nice warm day."
Her mouth opened as if she wanted to say something, but she stopped herself before she ended up with, "Yeah. Okay. That would be good. I could go for a milkshake. I could go for one right now actually." She huffed a smile and the gloss in her eyes faded away.

I smiled along with a little laugh, "Tomorrow." I tell her. I could tell she was still rattled. I moved a little closer to her and lifted her chin up to look at me. "Hey." I said softly. Her green eyes were piercing my soul. My heart started to beat a pace faster. My phone started ringing. My Uber driver was outside waiting. I continued to talk to her. "I'll see you tomorrow, Banī." I smiled softly with a smirk. I took a step backward. I winked as I tapped her nose and turned. I locked her door on the knob before I shut it tightly. I kept my hand on the doorknob as I leaned my entire body back against her door leaning my head back on it's hard wooden apartment number placard. I took a deep breath thinking about how fucking badly I wanted to put my lips against hers just now. Her soft lips touching mine. I wondered what it would feel like with our tongues dancing around eachother.

Fuck, Travis Shinoda. Stop it!

I let go of the doorknob and continued down the hall to the elevator. The entire ride down two floors consumed me with the nothing but the thought of her and what she had just asked of me. I rubbed my eyes in denial that I wasn't dreaming. I shook my head.

Shitballs right into hell, Travis!

This was the longest fucking elevator ride ever known to mankind. I got into my Uber and greeted my driver. The ride home is about to be the death of me.

•Brianna•

Travis probably thinks I am absolutely nuts for asking him what I just did. It was a dangerous move of me. I understand he is a player and takes a girl home every weekend. So I know I can't let myself project any type of emotional content toward him. I'm only using him the way he uses all of those other girls to get what he wants. I just want to get out of my virgin funk. I'm sure he knows more than quite a few things that would help me in the future with guys. Travis and I's friendship would be destroyed if I_ If he ever knew how I really feel about him.
I went into my room to change into my pajamas. While I had my shirt off, I heard my doorknob jiggle with keys in. The only people who have a key to my place are Fabian and Travis. I quickly looked for my hoodie that Trav left here one weekend. Before I could walk out into my living room, Travis shut my bedroom door with his foot while he stared at me with his green eyes and pulled me by my wrist into him and kissed me. He turned my body with his hands on my hips and clashing my back against my door. I had nothing to hold on to but the strings of his black hoodie. I gripped them and I gripped them tightly wondering what the fuck is happening.

I am in so much fucking trouble.

•Travis•

I
am
in
so
much
fucking
trouble.

I let my lips gently off of hers. Fuck. She doesn't have a shirt on and I have her backed against her bedroom door in her bra. Her silk dark blue bra that I know is part of a matching set. My sick perverted curiosity emerges, but I keep my impulses in place, even though I just let the impulse of kissing her just now, run wild like a goddamn thirsty vampire. We both were breathing fast of fear and hunger. Hunger in her eyes that I know she's never felt before. Shit. A look in her eyes that I might have had a preview for at the Masquerade, but these eyes are for me, and me only. It's new for me, because it's her, and it's real. It's so fucking real. I touched the skin of her hips and waist and raked my fingers up to her arms and letting her feel me touch her in the same exact movements from the masquerade. Only, I fucking meant it. It drove me hard and by the pace of her breathing again, I know she is loving this. I wrapped my hands through the back of her hair and let her see me rake her chest down to her belly button. I shifted my eyes back up to her emerald eyes and slipped my fingers through her hair. I pulled her head into me to kiss her again. I could feel her squeezing the shit out of my hoodie pulling against my chest in her fists. I could tell she wanted to do something with her hands, but wasn't sure what. I'll let her figure that part out on her own. She's doing just fine. I didn't want her moving a single inch unless her impulses tell her to.
She softly moved her lips to speak, "Travviss." She exhaled gently and put her lips gently back against mine. She could barely get my name out of her mouth. It fucking killed me. I've never heard my name said that way before. Ever. I immediately became harder and I wanted to hear it again. Fuck, I'm gonna make her say it that way over and over again. But not for this occasion. I softly pulled my lips away from hers and rested my forehead against hers and took another moment to gather my thoughts again. I took my hoodie off and gave it to her. My Uber driver is still waiting for me. I stepped a few steps back from her and smiled at her as she put my hoodie on and she smiled softly at my physical answer. I felt my dorky nervous ass blush.
"Burgers. Tomorrow." I said pointing and waving my finger around as if I was trying to change the subject. She nodded in perplexing thoughts as she wiped her mouth softly with her fingers. I watched her in my own perversional thoughts and I locked her door again but I didn't wink at her. I looked down at my black converse shoe with a smile as I closed her door and walked out. I rushed back down the hall and back into the elevator. On the way down, I laughed at myself holding onto the railing on the wall. I did it. I fucking did it. I put myself on a cloud and Fabian is going to absolutely fucking murder me.
No.
He won't because he's never going to find out about this.

Travis Shinoda, the rake hell of the town, is done.

•Brianne•

I_ what?

I laid awake in my bed awake what seemed all night. My brother would kill me if he knew what just happened. Maybe it's just Travis being Travis and I can't put too much thought into what he just did. I didn't do anything but kiss him back. It felt more sinful than when he tried to kiss me on the night of the masquerade. Heat waving through my body hit me harder than I could even control. I didn't want to control it. Maybe Travis was just showing me the type of feeling I could feel by just a kiss. It was just a kiss. Maybe he was just leaving me with the thought of what I felt that I needed to follow that feeling with. I've never been with a man before and I knew exactly what I wanted to do the moment he pulled his lips away from me. At least with him.