MHA Imagines ; discontinued

♣ - hitoshi shinsou

•hello! here is another update. i know i'm updating this a lot aren't i? last night i finished the todoroki update you'll read that before this one:)
of course i hope you enjoy this update!
happy reading!

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quirk : poison picker
this quirk allows the user to use release all types of poisons. either deadly or non-deadly. it is quite the useful quirk for silent kills and sneaking into a villain hideout. however, if the user uses their quirk too much: it retracts itself. instead of doing full damage to the opponent, it does half damage and kicks back and does half damage to the user instead. if the user doesn't know how to use this quirk it could be deadly. they can make helpful poisons, like medicine, or harmful poison, like arsenic.

!warning : self harm is mentioned!
suicide is not the answer.
suicide hotline : 1-800-273-8255
help is available for you.

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"she should be a villain when she gets older!" an older kid yelled at your cowering figure. "s-stop it!" you struggled to get out a comeback but it was no use. they wouldn't stop. it was toxic and they knew it was. "just go ahead and kill yourself! we don't need another villain in this world. especially someone like you."

you shook your head to get the past out of your head. you were training to become a hero at UA and all you could think about was them. they weren't even that strong. they didn't attend UA, and you didn't want them to. you sighed and decided to take a break for a little bit and go on a jog. before grabbing your water bottle, which was only a few feet away from you, you hummed out all your annoyance and continued with your plan. 'let's go get them off your mind y/n.'

as you kept a steady pace, jogging near the dorms just in case you needed more water, you noticed a purple haired boy in front of your jogging self. quickly but quietly you ran faster up behind him only to see he had matching eyes to his purple hair. "excuse me! i'm passing you." you called out as you ran past the guy and continued about your day. after your jog, your mind still was fogged with the thoughts about your former classmates. "hey y/n! you okay?" midoriya asked as you flinched. you had zoned out and didn't notice that the younger green haired boy was calling you. "oh sorry midoriya, i've just been busy thinking about stuff." you gave a half smile to convince him that you were alright. luckily it fooled him, but you knew it would only last for so long. the fake smiles, the fake actions, the fake act. it'll all fall apart soon. and when it does it'll be hell to pay.

going to your dorm room, you turned the lock on it so no one barged in. it happens often since you could make medicines from your poison. you might as well went to a medical high school instead of UA. nonetheless, it was your dream. yeah, a dream. all of this was a dream and you'd wake up soon right? the teasing, bullying, shoves, pushes, insults, and karma would be back to follow you around. you subconsciously walked over to your bed and sat down. no one knew what was going on behind closed doors. not one person. you never opened up because they'd not understand your fears, your past. they wouldn't understand you. that's what you've made yourself believe.

you went to bed not long after you had overran your brain with thoughts about everything. the next day you hadn't forgot anything. you got ready for class and shoved your book bag onto your back. luckily classes went by rather quickly today. at lunch time you sat on the roof again. not wanting to bother anyone of your classmates with your presence. the door opened as you continued to eat. your eye slowly looked over to the other side of the roof and what it saw was the purple haired man again. you assumed he was either in class 1B or 1C seeing as you'd never seen him before. he usually came up here too and ate, which never bothered you since he never saw you. well he never looked at you or spoke so you took that as a hint he didn't see your figure in the shade of the outside stairwell walls.

after your lunch was over classes went by more quickly than the first half of your day. you still heard whispers from your middle school days even though they didn't attend the school you went to. it was like they followed you around, and they did.

"jump off the roof. hang yourself. drown in a bathtub. drink bleach. just go die. maybe you'll get ran over by the bus. jump in front of a train. drink lighter fluid and light yourself will you?"

whispers. they still rang throughout the hallways. die. you tried to block it out. die. walking to the roof after class let out, you opened the door. die. the world was still moving around and the sky changed from blue to red and orange. die. you didn't notice that the door had opened and someone had stepped out and closed it behind them. jump. "maybe i will.." you mumbled. jump. you walked closer to the edge and stepped up on the ledge. jump. "i will already, shut up. just go away." whispers. you covered your ears and shook your head. die. jump. go. do it. die. jump off. you can do it. just die. poison yourself. die. drink it and jump. you used your quirk to make a less harmful poison that wouldn't kill you unless you had too much.
go ahead. jump y/n.

you drank the poison your palm had made, and stepped a foot over the edge. "fine! goddamn it i will!" you leaned and fell off the roof. peaceful. falling. downwards to the ground below. yank. your eyes flew wide open as they were met with a purple haired boy holding onto your wrist. "hey..!" the guy gasped. "let me go!" he bit his lip as he pulled you up. "no. i won't let you do something dumb!" he shot back and his eyes focused on you. you couldn't move. why? what is going on? "let me pull you up." the guy said as you nodded. not being able to do anything else but that. hitoshi shinsou. you finally realized who he was. his quirk was what was making you not able to move. "what the hell were you thinking?" shinsou ask quietly as you finally got control over your body again. "it got to be too much." you said as he rubbed his hands up and down your arms, trying to soothe you. "there is help for you... don't try this again. i know i don't know you, but i'd miss seeing you everyday." shinsou said as you calmed down slightly. "you can talk to me whenever you need to, okay?" you smiled and nodded.

"okay..."