TW: Suicidal Ideation.
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In the middle of a conversation I wake from my stupor and realize that I don't want to end my life. I've been nodding and answering senselessly. But now all that's on my mind is whether or not I'm going to jump over that bridge today. Or maybe tomorrow. When my phone is charged. Is my phone charged? How far is it? And then I have my phone in my hands. And I leave. And now I'm wondering about the battery percentage and whether I'm going to kill myself.
