how you get the girl ; afi

1.0

HOW YOU GET THE GIRL 1.0

age: 17 (cont)

turned out all that running got me a sprained ankle. I sat in my kitchen as my mum fetched me an ice pack and a cup of hot chocolate. I didn't have it in me to tell her what happened. she'd picked me up from god knows where I ended up and taken me home, giving me only a hug, and understanding look and a sympathetic smile.

⠀"feeling better?" she asked, pulling up a chair at the kitchen table and sitting beside me.

⠀"yes, thank you, mom."

⠀"no problem, sweetie. we can talk in the morning, if you'd like."

I nodded and gave her a small smile, sipping my hot chocolate gratefully. I took it upstairs and crawled into my comfortingly warm and familiar bed. memories of the night Ashton took me home from prom flooded back to me, and tears prickled in my eyes.

suddenly my phone rang.

'Ash✨ incoming call'

⠀"hello?" I answered, still sniffling.

⠀"Cassie, we need to talk."

⠀"I know."

⠀"but I can't come see you now. or tomorrow."

⠀"are you okay?" I asked, confused.

⠀"Cassie, I'm leaving."

⠀"excuse me?"

⠀"you know the band I told you about? well, we've been given our big break. we're going on tour. the guys and I leave tomorrow morning."

I sat in shock, shaking, for a minute or two, neither of us speaking.

⠀"Ashton-"

⠀"I'm so fucking sorry, Cas. I don't know when I'll get back. if you still want to, we can talk then."

⠀"why can't we talk now?" I said angrily, my voice shaking. "Ashton, I-I need you."

⠀"please, Cas, don't make this harder than it is, I can't talk now. I don't want either of us to say something we might not still feel when I return. it's better this way.

⠀"fuck you," I sobbed, "fuck you."

⠀"I know, Cas. fuck me. fuck everything. I'll come back, Cassie, I promise. I'll come back and we can sort everything out."

⠀"what am I supposed to do until then!" I cried.

⠀"I don't expect you to wait for me, Cas, I don't. I love-"

I cancelled the call.

letting out a frustrated scream, I banged my fist against the wall, causing my mom to run upstairs and instantly charge into my room.

⠀"Cassie?" she asked, shocked.

I curled up into a ball, wanting to disappear. wanting it all to go away. wanting to stop everything good from leaving me. my mom came and lay next to me on my bed, tucking us both in beneath the covers, soothing my back like I was a baby again. she didn't leave my side until I fell asleep.

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HOLY CRAP I NEARLY CRIED WRITING HTIS I HATE MYSeLF OM FFG

SEEIOUSKY IVE NEVER WROTE SUCH AN EMOTIONAL CHAPTER WTF