«FRASES»

1 1 0. To my boyfriend

Rose pink lips and golden hair, a captivating stare and endless cigarretes. One devilish and fiery present that ignite the souls of those who surround him. A beautiful fire that consumes your senses when you intent to see where all the warm comes from.

I've seen it all in this world.  An old soul who have been through a lot of pain and confusion. I've freed myself from the dark heavy chains of misery, but the paying price was getting numb at almost every source of intensity.

It's a strange feeling. The discomfort. Rain is hitting your body but somehow you're not getting completely wet. It's drinking poison but never seeing the effect coming up. You get frustrated cause all your intents of external stimulation seems to be in vain. You're never truly satisfied with the outcome, and you find yourself having to use your internal resources to supply it.

"It's the price of immortality", I say. You know you can survive to almost everything, but life lose the fun of living, and you keep looking for that force besides your own that electrifies the energy with you.

That's why it's extremely pleasant when I find that one person with the power of igniting the shit out of me. When the energies just match, and the hearts start dancing at the same rhythm all of a sudden.

The moment I saw him, I knew he had something, because I felt so drawn immediately to his way. Although I ignored the beat, my curiosity was poked.

Then, I knew him.

It was strange at first, cause it had been a while since the intrigue sat down my stomach, but as we were talking I could see the depth in his soul. All the love he had to give. All the pain hiding inside.

We were so similar, and yet so different. My brain started to work unconsciously fast, and I analyzed all the potential he had. All the beauty, all that will.

Later, when i looked right into his eyes, it was over.

The sparks lighted up the dark sky and the fire that we released could burn an entire city. I embodied a kid in a Christmas morning. And certainly, it was clear. We were meant to meet each other.

Both of us came from the black, owned it, and crossed the way into the rainbow. Both of us felt the anxiousness of the transition. We were meant to meet each other, because we both knew how it feels the transformation and how painful it can be.

"I found one", I thought, with white fog coming out of my mouth. "Another god among mortals".

I related to his sensitivity, I enjoyed the way he pushes everyone limits, I embraced his jokes no matter how inappropriate they were and I had fun with the chemistry despite the weird circumstances.

It's a strange feeling, but I'm down with it for sure.

And no... I dont know what this could end up being and honestly, I dont care, but what I do know is that I gotta keep him in my life.

So he could help me take away the numbness with his adventurous and careless vibe, and so i can help him realize, through his insecurities, what a gorgeous stone he is.