I Want You (Lesbian)

Chapter 6

"What?" I was disappointed.

I sat on the edge of the bed, feeling like I had just been punched in the stomach. I had a feeling that the girl I saw was her girlfriend, but I wasn't sure. She hadn't mentioned her. I assumed that fight was the end of whatever relationship they had. I was hurt that she didn't tell me and I was upset she let it go this far before mentioning it. I felt betrayed.

"Let me explain." Jessie said while sitting up and grabbing my wrist.

"You have a girlfriend. That's enough explanation." I stood up.

"No, Skylar, wait. It's complicated. We kind of broke up a while ago. We got in a huge fight. I told her I wasn't happy, the talk ended bad and she stormed out. She called me a while after and told me that she wanted to work on things. I didn't want to try anymore but her and I have been together for 3 years, it's not that easy." Jessie sat with her hands in her hair.

I had no idea what to think. If she kind of broke up with her, why would she say she has a girlfriend? Something didn't add up.

My body trembled in anger at the thought of her and that girl. I felt heat rush through me, a very different heat than the one I was feeling five minutes ago. I was embarrassed. I put her in a position that required her to tell me to stop. I should have asked, or waited.

"Why wouldn't you tell me sooner?" I finally spoke.

"Because I didn't expect this would happen with me and you." She looked down shamefully.

I turned around and made eye contact with her. Even though I was hurt and slightly embarrassed, looking at her soothed me. I got lost in her eyes every time I looked in them, but this time I felt hurt.

"Okay well it did, so what now?" I said, hoping to hear something good.

"Come here." Jessie stood up too.

I walked closer to her and she grabbed my hands. She had a wanting look in her eyes disguised by culpability. Her eyes seemed darker than usual. She was toxic in a self destructing way. There were so many more layers to her than shown on the surface. She was complex. My vulnerability allowed myself to keep stepping closer, aware that with every step I took, was a step towards despair. Her hypnotizing charm pulled me closer.

She placed her hand on my cheek and kissed my neck. My eyes closed at the feel of her touch.

The sensation was cut short by Jessie pulling away.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I honestly have no idea what's going on with me and Amanda, and until I figure it out can we just go back to before? I like spending time with you and being your friend."

I cringed at the word friend. I didn't know how to feel. I couldn't hide my intense allurement towards her. I couldn't go around seeing her at work, at our apartment after knowing what it's like to kiss her, to feel her and to have to swallow down the temptation to do it again. But I had to respect her and Amanda's relationship no matter how annoying that was, so I agreed to continue being friends.

We both sat down on the bed. It took everything in my being to sit beside her and not touch her now. We tried to not let our uncomfortable encounter ruin the night. Both of us just had to live with knowing there was a mutual attraction, without being able to act on it.

It was late and her and we decided that both of us had too many drinks to drive back home. We were both off tomorrow thankfully. Jules had told us we could crash here and leave whenever, so that's what we did. We had both fallen asleep without saying goodbye to anyone from work. I woke up in the morning to the bright sunlight shining directly in my face. Jessie's right arm was wrapped around my waist and her left arm was coming out the space between my neck and shoulder. Her front was to my back, leaving a warm sensation on half of my body. It felt right. Like the perfect fit. I snapped out of my delusive wishes and carefully moved her arm from my waist so I could sit up. I looked back at her, still sleeping eyes, and admired what I saw. The sun radiated off her face. Her eyes still had last night's makeup on. Her lips were relaxed and slightly parted. She looked so peaceful.