Love The Void {REMDY}

Chapter 1

"Ugh where is he? He knows how anxious I get at clubs." Andy thinks to himself as he wanders anxiously around the bar, on the edge of a panic attack, looking for his boyfriend Ashley.

He can feel himself getting more and more anxious by the second, and he knows that he needs to find Ashley soon and get out or else he's going to have a panic attack in the middle of a crowded, noisy bar.

He walks around for a few more minutes before seeing something that shocked the anxiety right out of him, replacing it with hurt, confusion, and overwhelming sadness.

Ashley was sitting at the bar making out with another man. Andy recognizes the man as Remington. Remington's band and Andy's band had been on warped tour together for the last two years. Andy has talked to Remington before, and even considers him as one of his best friends.

"Ash?" Andy says nervously while trying to hide the pain in his voice, which causes Ashley and Remington to jump apart.

"Andy!" Ashley yells, shocked. "I can explain!"

"Save it. We're done." Andy breaths shakily, his eyes filling with tears before turning around and running out of the club.

"You said you were single! What the fuck is wrong with you? Why the fuck would you want to hurt someone who's so sweet and loving like that?" Remington yells at Ashley before slapping him across the face.

Despite being a friend of Andy's, Remington really had no idea that he and Ashley were dating. Ashley wasn't ready to be out yet, so they made sure to keep their relationship a secret.

Ashley had no response. It was dawning on him just how much he had hurt Andy and fucked up their relationship.

"You're an asshole! I hope you know that." Remington yells before running out of the club to to find Andy.

Remington knows how sensitive and easily upset Andy is, despite trying act tough and by hiding his emotions, and he can't even imagine what he must be feeling right now.

Remington leaves the bar and walks around outside in the cold, dark night, calling Andy's name in hopes of finding him before he tries to do anything stupid. He continues walking and finds a park a few blocks away from the bar. He goes to the park, and is relieved when he finds Andy sitting on the ground against the field house building. Even though Andy is sitting with his legs to his chest and his face is hidden in his knees, Remington knows he can recognize him anywhere.

Remington quietly walks up to Andy, as not to scare him off, and sits down on the cold ground next to him. He gently places his hand on Andy's shoulder, causing him to jump a little and look up. He sees that it's Remington, and shoots him a glare.

"What the hell do you want?" Andy seethes, shrugging Remington's hand off his shoulder and turns away to hide the tears that are running down his face. He doesn't bother to wipe them away; he knows there will be more. A lot more.

Despite Andy's effort to hide the fact that he's crying, Remington still notices. It breaks his heart that someone would hurt Andy this badly. And it hurts even more knowing that it's partially his fault that Andy is so upset.

"I wanted to say I'm sorry. I honestly had no idea you and Ashley were dating. He told me he was single. If I knew, I never would have kissed him, or let him kiss me. I would never hurt you, Andy. Hell, I don't even have feelings for him. I never did. I don't even know why I was kissing him. You didn't deserve  for any of this to happen. I'm so sorry." Remington says softly, his heart breaking more.

"You didn't know. It's not your fault." Andy says, his voice breaking as he tries his hardest not to break down any more than he already has.

Andy can't even describe in words how much he's hurting right now. He feels like someone stabbed him in the heart with 1,000 daggers. He feels so stupid crying about it while Remington is sitting next to him. He knows it's not his fault, but it still hurts to know that his boyfriend, who he loved with his entire heart, had cheated on him with his best friend. With his guy best friend. After Ashley had said on multiple occasions that he wasn't ready to be out yet. It makes Andy wonder if Ashley was embarrassed to be seen with him; if Ashley ever even loved him like he said he did. That thought makes his heart hurt more, making it feel like he's been stabbed with even more daggers.

Andy realizes that he really doesn't want to be alone right now and turns his body back towards Remington, still keeping his face hidden in his knees.

"It hurts so bad." Andy whispers, his voice breaking and sounding a few octaves higher than usual. He inhales sharply and holds his breath, trying not to start sobbing like a child who lost their favorite stuffed animal.

"I'm so sorry Andy..." Remington whispers as he hesitantly places his hand on Andy's back. He smiles very slightly when Andy doesn't pull away from him.

Andy hugs his legs even tighter to his chest in an attempt to comfort himself and calm himself down, feeling the urge to cry get stronger and harder to hold in.

Remington notices Andy struggling to hold himself together and feels his breathing become even more uneven than it already was. He knows Andy's trying not to cry, and it breaks his heart to see Andy in so much pain.

"Just let it out, Andy. It's alright." Remington whispers.

Not even a second later, Andy screams  and bursts into tears, sobbing hard as the memory of Ashley kissing someone else replays in his mind over and over.

Remington feels his heart shatter and he pulls Andy into his lap, holding him tightly as his emotions completely take over.

Andy wraps his legs around Remington's waist and hugs him as tight as he can, burying his face in Remington's neck and shoulder.

Remington hugs Andy around his waist just as tightly and gently rubs his back. He can feel Andy shaking violently and feels his tears falling onto his shirt and neck. He moves one hand to the back of Andy's head while the other continues rubbing his back. He pulls Andy even closer to him and softly strokes his hair as he cries harder.

Remington can feel tears sliding down his own cheeks as well. It hurts him to see Andy like this. If he's being honest, he's always been in love with Andy but never said anything in fear of scaring him off.

Remington continues to hold Andy, rubbing his back and stroking his hair while rocking him slowly until he eventually runs out of tears to cry.

When he's done crying, Andy pulls out of the hug, but stays in Remington's lap. Remington pulls the sleeve of his shirt over his hand and carefully wipes Andy's tears before wiping his own.

"Do you want to spend the night at my house?" Remington asks, knowing that Andy shares a house with Ashley and that he most likely doesn't want to be anywhere near him right now. Andy nods.

"Alright, I'll text Sebastian and have him come pick us up." He says.

He pulls his phone out of his pocket and sends a text to Sebastian.

R: Hey Seb, can you come pick Andy and I up from that park near the bar and drive us back to my place?

S: Sure thing. I'll see you in about 10 minutes.

R: Thank You

He puts his phone back in his pocket and looks back to Andy. He sees Andy looking away from him as more tears run down his face. He carefully turns Andy's face back towards him and wipes his tears before pulling him into another hug. Andy sniffles and rests his head on Remington's shoulder, silently crying and wishing he could just disappear.

Feeling more tears hitting his shirt, Remington holds Andy tighter and rubs his back, singing softly. Andy doesn't say anything. He just lets himself relax in Remington's arms and listens to his voice as it calms him down.

The two sit like this until Sebastian pulls up to take them back to Remington's house. By the time he shows up, Andy is nearly asleep on Remington's shoulder. Remington doesn't want to wake him up, so he decides to carry him to the car.

Sebastian sees Remington carrying Andy and sends his brother a questioning look. Remington shakes his head, signing for his brother not to ask what happened. Sebastian nods and gets out of the car to open the back door so Remington can put Andy in the back seat. As he turns to leave and sit in the front next to Sebastian, Remington feels a hand gently grab his wrist. He turns around and sees Andy looking at him with sad eyes.

"Stay with me?" Andy asks innocently.

Remington's heart melts as he climbs into the back seat with Andy. Andy rests his head on Remington's shoulder and closes his eyes as they drive to Remington's, feeling comforted by the fact that he's willing to stay with him and help him get through this.