Love The Void {REMDY}

Chapter 8

Trigger warning; but gets cute at the end

When Remington and Andy get back to Remington's house, Andy goes straight upstairs to the bedroom. Remington finds it strange that he just went upstairs without saying anything, so he follows him.

When he gets upstairs he finds Andy laying in bed with all the covers on top of him as if he were trying to hide himself.

"Andy? Are you okay?" Remington asks as he walks to the bed and sits down next to Andy.

Andy hums as a response, not wanting to speak to anyone at the moment.

"Do you want me to leave you alone?" Remington asks quietly, not wanting to upset Andy.

"Stay." Andy whispers quietly.

He doesn't want to talk right now, be he also doesn't really want to be alone either.

Remington lies down on the bed with Andy, who immediately curls up to him, hiding his face in his chest and hugging him tightly while still hiding under the blankets so Remington can't see his face.

Remington moves the blankets away from Andy's face, concerned that he won't be able to breathe if he keeps hiding in the blankets, and gently runs his fingers through Andy's hair. He knows Andy's upset about something, but doesn't want to push Andy into telling him. The last thing he wants is to add more pressure onto him.

"It's just hard." Andy whispers after some time. "Ash has been in the band since the beginning. It hurts to replace him. Even though he hurt me."

"I know Andy, I know. It's gonna hurt for a while. You're strong though. You'll get through this, and I'll be here to help you." Remington says as he hugs Andy tighter, wanting to comfort him as much as he can.

Laying like this with Remington makes Andy feel safe- like everything will be okay. He knows that he's in love with Remington, but he's too afraid to tell him because he thinks he'll leave him or hurt him the same way Ashley did. Andy's never felt so safe with someone before Remington. Not even with anyone else he's dated before Ashley. Remington makes Andy feel so safe and loved, and Andy doesn't want to mess that up. He can't even imagine how much it would hurt him if Remington started dating someone. He doesn't want to even think about that. He doesn't think he'd survive that.

It doesn't take much longer before Andy realizes that allowing himself to get this close to Remington will eventually break his heart, or worse.

Out of nowhere, Andy pulls away from Remington and jumps out of the bed.

"I can't keep doing this." He whispers as he runs out of the room and into the bathroom, making sure to lock the door.

"Andy, wait! What's wrong?" Remington asks as he follows Andy.

Andy takes his phone out of his pocket and pulls the case off, taking out the blade he keeps hidden. He pulls up his sleeve, revealing the cuts he made a few days ago which are starting to heal. He takes the blade and adds more cuts while also reopening some old ones. He just wants to forget the pain of Remington not loving him back.

Before Andy even realizes it, he's made around 30 new cuts as well as opened 5 previous ones. As he's putting the blade back in his phone case, Remington picks the lock on the door and sees the cuts on Andy's arm.

"Andy.... why would you do this to yourself?" Remington asks as he gently takes the blade from Andy's hand and flushes it down the toilet.

"I just wanted to forget." Andy whispers as he looks down, tears escaping his eyes.

"Forget what, Ands?" Remington asks softly as he gently grabs Andy's hand and bandages the cuts on his arm.

"FORGET THAT I LOVE YOU!" Andy shouts before realizing what he said. When he realizes, he pulls away from Remington and backs away as far as he can. He falls to the ground and pulls his knees to his chest, hiding his face in his knees and sobbing hard.

Remington is confused. He loves Andy too, and it hurts him to see him in this much pain.

"I love you too, Andy. I always have." Remington whispers and he sits on the floor with Andy and pulls him into his arms. "I love you so much."

"Not in the way that I love you." Andy sobs and tries to pull away from Remington, but Remington just holds him tighter.

"Andy I've been in love with you since I met you. I never told you because I didn't want to scare you or push you away. I love you so fucking much, Andy. I understand that you're hurting right now, and I don't want to force you into a relationship right now. That's another reason I didn't tell you. But I do love you." Remington says as he holds Andy close, rubbing soft, soothing circles on his back.

"I love you Remi. I love you more than I love myself." Andy whispers and hugs Remington tight, hiding his face in his shoulder and crying into him.

Remington carefully picks Andy up and carries him back to the bedroom, sitting on the bed with Andy in his lap, holding him and letting him cry as much as he needs to.

"Do you really love me?" Andy asks quietly once he's stopped crying.

"Yes, Andy. I love you so fucking much." Remington says as he carefully dries the tears on Andy's face with the sleeve of his shirt.

"I don't want to force you into a relationship right now, but I'll gladly wait until you're ready." He says as he pulls Andy into another hug.

"I wanna be with you, Remi. I love you and I wanna be with you." Andy says and hugs Remington tighter.

"Are you sure you're ready?" Remington asks, wanting to make sure Andy's sure about starting a new relationship.

"I'm sure." Andy says.

"Well in that case, will you be my boyfriend?" Remington asks, smiling like an idiot.

"Absolutely!" Andy says happily, and kisses Remington's lips.