Lesbians in Hollywood II (COMPLETED)

Chapter 5: Inner Circle

(Imaged Above: Amber Roselake)

Chapter 5: "Inner Circle"

"Count on Me" By Bruno Mars

"Dad?" I repeated. I was shaking all over. My throat was dry. But most of all my heart felt like it wasn't even beating anymore. I couldn't even process what was going on. My eyes were rattling I couldn't seem to utter anything out of my lips. "Oh, wow Alyssa you're so much older." His lips parted as he sounded airy. He let out a soft chuckle as he coughed and gave me a half smile. He stared intently at me. He was clearly startled by my appearance. "What are, are you-I don't understand." I looked over to Gunnar, Nico, and Robbie who were all seated at the dining room table. Calmly, collectively, listening with care. My view of them began to get hazy as I put my hands over my mouth.

Gunnar began to speak as he looked down and up from his feet to my eyes. "He became curious as to what became of us." My mouth hung slightly open as I couldn't feel my legs anymore. "Yeah, I wanted to see how you guys were. And to my luck you still all lived in this crappy little neighborhood." He even joked. I turned my body to face this man who was slowly sipping a cup of water on our dining room table. From one of our cups. Out of our tap water. That Gunnar struggled to pay the bills for. That Nico and Gunnar didn't go to college for. I worked hard every day from work to pay for. That we worked hard for. He sipped it like it was nothing that we were giving it to him.

"What the hell are you doing back here?" I grunted. My gaze shaking somehow even more than before. He double blinked not realized that I'd ask that so blatantly. "Uh, like Gunnar said, I, was curious as to what became of all of you." He even just decided to throw in a slight smile as he toyed with the drink in his hands. "No, you don't get to come in here after being gone for years from us. For years! I don't care what the fuck it is for. You don't get to come back in here and, and, just, like nothing has happened! Like you didn't leave us!" My eyes were shooting out of my head and I didn't even think I could scream that loudly. Gunnar, Nico, and Robbie were frozen still, but I could see the truth on their faces at I yelled at this man.

"Now, Lyssa, I know-" "No! No! You don't know the hell and back we have gone through to put food on this table for the four of us. You don't know. You didn't even come back for us after hearing about mom's passing. You didn't. You just left. You left with that younger skank that I'm sure has already left you and that's why you're back here because you need money now." I was full on crying by now. Shaking. Rattling because my body couldn't contain this much anger in it. "I'm sorry! I'm so, so, so, so sorry." He put his face into his hands and just broke down crying. My lips parted. I hadn't expected him to do that. "I know I could never make it up to all of you. I know I could never. I just figured it was now or never to see you all again. We are only getting older and it had been on my mind since the moment I left to come see you guys again, really, really, I mean it, I know that there would never been a right time to come back, but I just couldn't stay away anymore."

He rambled as he shook violently in the chair. His voice was dry and scratchy, it was cracking at every turn. "I'm so sorry I-I know you could never forgive me." His eyes were strained red as his legs wobbled on the floor. He was clearly distraught and desperate. Saying whatever he could trying his hardest. Coming back here must have been a last resort for him.

"I don't care. You left us. Now get out. I don't ever want to see you again." "Please, just hear me out, Lyssa." My eyes closed trying to calm myself down. "Please Lyss, I want to know him again." It was Robbie from the other end of the table. He looked at me as his face trembled at the sight of anger pressing through my veins. His eyes vibrated as they saw me like this. His breathing was clearly staggered and that's when I noticed. He was scared of me like this. I looked around at Nico and Gunnar and they had the same expression written on their faces. They were scared of me. I was horrified. "You want to know him again?" I questioned at Robbie.