The One I Need; Namtaemin(sequel to The One I Want)

The right path

Namjoon

"Do you need anything? Are you hurting? Want me to adjust your—"
"Please just stop." Taehyung sighs tiredly and cuts me off making my mouth snap closed. He groans and situates himself on the bed. His red rimmed eyes trail around the room for the hundredth time. "Why am I in your room again? I'm fine in mine."
Huffing, I cross my arms. "You're staying in here. The bed is bigger and more comfortable and—"
     "And what about Jimin?" He counters.
     Pausing, I glance towards the door where we can hear Jimin and Ryujin's voices down the hall playing in her bedroom.
     "He's going to sleep with Ryujin tonight."
     "Okay and what about you?"
     "I'm sleeping with you."
     He scowls. "I don't need or want a babysitter. Let me go stay in my room and you and Jimin sleep here. It makes the most sense. Why are you being weird about this?"
     Taking a few moments to gather my thoughts, I sit on the edge of the bed and grasp his hand, holding it tightly but gently in mine. The scar is deep and still bleeding in places under the gauze, the wound traveling halfway up his arm.
     "I'm scared." I admit in a whisper. "Despite everything...I don't want to lose you, Tae. I love you. I'm so scared you're going to do something again and next time I won't make it to save you."
     He looks away. "Who told you to save me? I didn't ask you to."
     Hurt fills me. "You don't have to ask me. As your Hyung and mate, it's my job."
     "No, your job is to take care of Jimin—who you truly want to mate with—and your kid. Don't bother with me, alright?"
     I scoff. "And what about our kid?" My hand drifts over to his stomach and he flinches. "You're carrying my child. My blood. Remember?"
     "It's wrong. You know that. This is...really wrong, hyung." His voice breaks. "I don't know what to do about this..."
     "It's going to be okay." Jimin's voice is soft and we both look over to see him standing in the doorway. He gives a tiny smile. "Ryujin is sleeping now." He walks in and takes a seat beside Taehyung, pulling him into his arms and kissing his cheek. "We have a plan, remember? If anyone asks then tell them it's mine."
     Tae huffs but doesn't move away from his arms. "This is crazy. How can anyone believe that I'm carrying your child while you're planning to be mated to Namjoon! It really doesn't make sense."
     Jimin clicks his tongue, thinking. "Well...we can just tell people we got drunk again and slept together resulting in your pregnancy and this was before Namjoon and I fully reconciled and made it official so...it's really no one else's business, right?"
     I snort. "And...for the time being, at least, Jimin and I aren't going to bond."
     Tae frowns. "Why not?"
     "It's too dangerous. I'm going to remain bonded to you, Tae. Jimin and I will keep our relationship but we're not really worried about deepening it right now. It's not that important." Admitting.
     Jimin nods in agreement. "You're most important to us, Tae." He kisses his cheek again. "After all...I was officially yours first, right? I fell in love with you at first sight, Taehyung. You know that right?" He looks away shyly. "I love Namjoon now but I guess deep down I still harbor feelings for you, too. I guess I never considered them until I thought we lost you. It really messed me up."
      Tae flushes, eyes going glassy. "Y-you do?"
     "Yes. I know I still love you. Somehow you psycho brothers managed to fuck me up just right, huh? Now I'm as crazy as you both are." He chuckles without humor, leaning back comfortably on the bed. "You both worked your best to get into my head and body and now you've succeeded and I'm damaged goods for anyone else. You're both stuck with me now. Live with your consequences!" He scolds.
     I laugh, happy to see Tae smiling as well. "Of course. We have to take responsibility for him, Tae. You have to own up you your part, too." I joke, winking at him.
     He blushes. "I suppose."
     I watch as they both chat tiredly and soon end up drifting to sleep in each other's arms. Silently, I leave the room to check on Ryujin before walking into my study and closing the door firmly.
     Dropping my head in my hands, I let all my anxiety flow out with the tears. I've really truly utterly...fucked up everything. How will I ever make things right? I never can.
    I really...should have listened to Jungkook a long time ago. Maybe things wouldn't have turned out this bad.
     I can't with good conscience let Jimin and Taehyung live like this—a life of lies and deception. They can't even tell our friends the truth. I know Jin and Hoseok are going to freak out if Jimin tells them he's the father of Tae's baby and I also know they will be very unhappy to know we are officially together.
     They'll blame me—rightfully so—and believe I'm manipulating him again. I'm not. I truly fucking love him. I never want to hurt him again but I don't want Jimin to suffer being  by my side with judgement.
     I know Jungkook is going to disapprove as well. Unfortunately, they have no idea how twisted this shit goes. In a different social standing I could go to prison for what I did to Taehyung and Jimin but being who I am...and an alpha...I would get away with it. It really shouldn't be that way.
     It wasn't intentional but I took advantage of Taehyung in his weakest state. It doesn't matter he wanted it. I'm his big brother. His protector. I never ever should have given in...it's just...I'm messed up too. I need someone too.
     I hate myself for falling so weak. Now everyone around me I love is going to reap the consequences.
     It's not fair.
     I have to find a way to turn this all around.
     For the both of them.
    Even if it means sacrificing my happiness by their side to do what's right.