Discarded

chapter 13

Ariana

I heard loud screams in the hall. The only thing I remembered is, that I fell asleep on Jordyns lap.
Suddenly I recognized two voices.

I jumped up and ran straight into the hall finding Jordyn on the floor and Pete in the front of her.

As I took a closer look, I noticed a laceration on her head.

„Are you crazy?" I screamed as he turned around and faced me.
„Are you fucking crazy touching my girl?" I yelled pushing him backwards.
„Ariana relax" he said with a provocatively smile.
„Fuck you"
„Get out. I swear to god get the fuck out! Hit me or do whatever you want with me, but you're not gonna touch her ever again. You get it?"

„You don't know how I feel Ariana! Do you think I didn't noticed that you're not even in love with me? I was just there to distract you from Jordyn." he screamed back.
„I was in love with you. But that was before you decided to cheat on me hundred times okay? Yes it wasn't right, but I know now, that I'm fucking in love with her okay?"

As he started walking towards me, Tiley and Courtney came in pushing him backwards.

„We got him, take care off Jordyn" Courtney said and I nodded. I leaned down looking into her eyes.
„Come on let's go to the bath"

I put her arm around my shoulder while we walked to the bathroom.

I took a towel and made it wet placing it on the wound. She groaned a few times trying to hold back the whole pain in her body.

After I took care of the wound, we went into my bedroom where she laid down. I sat on the edge looking at her.

„I didn't know about how you feel" she said out of blue.
„I never stopped loving you. I made some big shit I know. But I wasn't happy with him. You're this missing piece Jordyn for fucks sake I can't let go of you" I replied and she smiled a little bit.

The door opened and our heads quickly turned into the way seeing Courtney and Tiley standing there.

„Pete went home, we're gonna let you guys alone. You call us when you need something" Courtney said with a smile before closing the door.

„How do you feel?"
„I'm kinda fine" she said and looked at me.
„I'm so fucking sorry for what happened, I'm sorry for giving up on you" she added and put her hand on my cheek. I felt again these butterflies in my stomach. I was in love like a fucking teenager. But it felt right and I loved this feeling.

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„Let's go get some food Grande"
„Jordyn you just bled out and the only thing you're thinking about is food?" She nodded and smiled putting on her shoes. We didn't talk about us, since the last time when I sat on the edge looking at her. But maybe it's better. Maybe both of us need some time. And I don't wanna rush anything.

I put on my thigh highs and her sweater. I walked downstairs and set onto the drivers seat buckling my seatbelt. I drove off and played some music while we were constantly starring at each other. This was more distraction than every alcohol I ever drank.

When we arrived a vegan food restaurant, we ordered some pasta. I couldn't stop starring at her. She was beautiful, her eyes, her nose, her lips fucking everything. This woman was goddess.

„What's about your album?" she questioned and I shrugged.
„I wrote some lyric but to be honest, I'm not that sure about what I wrote. Do you remembered when I was in the Starbucks shop? I wrote there a pretty good song."
„Oh really? What's about?" she asked looking curiously.
„You" I simply responded. It was fucking simple to write when I have a motivation. She was my motivation. She gave me the feelings nobody gave me since Mac's death.

„I wanna hear it though"
I laughed and took her hand in mine.
„It's not even ready" I replied and she acted like she was pissed.
„I wanna hear it" she pouted and I started laughing at her. I thought this would make things awkward between us. Obviously it didn't.

„Here try these" she said and pushed me a fruit into my mouth. I started to laugh again, nearly I choked on it but damn it was so fucking good.
„What's that?" I asked and she shrugged.
„You want more?" I nodded immediately and she gave her plate.
„No,No I just want it out of your hands, they're kinda better then" she blushed and this was so fucking cute.

She gave me another one and another, at one point I ate all and I had stomachache.

„Greedy"
„I'm not" I pouted back as we made our way outside. I took my phone checking the time it was 3 am.

„May i drive?" She asked then and first I gave her a confused gaze.
„Are you really okay?" I just wanted to make sure that she's really fine. I was fucking worried. She nodded before buckling her seatbelt and turning on the motor.

„Where are we actually going?" I asked curiously interlocking our hands. She smiled at the look of our hands and just kept on driving.

„You, you love it how I move you" I sang with the radio.
„You love it how I touch you"
„My one, when all is said and done"
„You'll believe God is a woman" she sang and looked at me. Her voice sounds so fucking good I really should ask why she isn't a singer. But then other fans are in love with her. No, No it's good.
„And I, I feel it after midnight"
„A feelin' that you can't fight" I sang along as we stopped.

„This is my favorite spot. Since my dad died I was here all the time. Just looking at the hills, the sea, enjoying the location, the sound." she said presenting the beautiful location where we were.

„It's private so don't mind" I smiled and we got out.
We walked towards the sea hand in hand. To be honest I was still afraid, maybe I dreamt that whole thing.

We sat onto a bench starring at the sea. Her arm was around my shoulder and pressed me tightly against her. It was a little bit could but with her on my side I felt warm and safe.

„You know, this kinda helped me calming down. I didn't know what to do anymore. My mother just kept drinking, not eating, not speaking. I had the feeling she just wanted to die. Today she's apologizing everyday for forgetting me." I saw tears rolling down her cheek. With my thumb I wiped them out and placed my hand on her cheek.

„You should have called me, I would be there for you every second"
„I know but you had your own problems you know? Pete, your career, everything. I didn't want to stress you more" she responded looking deep into my eyes.

„What's more important than be there for the person who I love? I tried to distract myself because I though that you hate me. It was my fault and I know that"
„It wasn't. It was mine too. I should've talk to you, I just stayed silent and that's the worst I could do. I felt so fucking stupid and I wanna apologize for that. I never wanted seeing you in such a big pain."

My heart. My everything. God I love her.
„I need to apologize. I don't know why I said that I'm still kinda in love with him. I don't know yet but I don't care anymore. Jordyn the thing I knew is, I love you. I never was that sure but I know I am now." I said and she looked at me with her glossy eyes.

Our faces came closer. I could feel her breath near me. For a second I opened my eyes before closing it again. Our lips were closer than ever.

I tried to lean into the kiss when suddenly...

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A/N: I know :} I'm fucking sorry hahaha. I hope you liked that chap☁️🖤