The Diary of Mei

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My name is Mei I am in 11th grade at this time, and I want to be a journalist. My literature teacher suggested I write in a journal and try to tell my life like a story to give myself as much practice as possible. Here is a short introduction to me.

My life is pretty repetitive. I find that this routine keeps my mind balanced, and anxiety at a low. I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder a few years ago. I have been in and out of therapy but my mind stays a garden overgrown with weeds. So keeping a routine is very important to me. Every day I wake up at 7 am. Stare out the window for 10 minutes as I blink the moister back into my eyes then. My wardrobe consisted of about 20 different graphic tees a pair of shorts my favorite jeans and maybe a skirt here or there. I don't do much with my hair usually just rub some water through my curls and let it go. My tea goes into a thermos every morning with to much sugar, and a splash of milk. Some days my mom wakes up in the morning to take me to school some days she has difficulty getting out of bed. I feel like we have a similar mental mess but we don't talk about it. I deal with my disorder differently then she can. If mom does take me to school we usually stay quiet. No matter the weather no matter the day I was content to stare out the window at what passed by. Silence in the car every morning. If she doesn't wake up in time then I'm happy to walk to school. However, if I have to walk the whole way there I will be a few minutes late. Since we live in a smaller town, and I know the bus driver sometimes she will stop if she sees me walking.

Even though my school is a small town school, it's always loud and buzzing with life in the morning. I have a few friends since I'm in a few after school clubs and programs. I talk to my classmates about the weekend, I laugh at jokes about our classes and sometimes hear the gossip.

I am in every writing club in the school. Which includes the school paper, journaling, poetry, and the short story club. I take all the normal classes; Algebra, Geometry, Language Arts, Science, Civics, History, and I just started a cooking class that is one Saturday a month. I'm in a few other clubs; study club, theater, we started a dance club this year and a book club. Each one of these clubs does take quite a bit of time. So I am busy most weekends and evenings. I don't feel like it's too much because I enjoy how I spend my time.

I love school but I am focused on my arts. I'm hoping that when I am older I can pursue at least one art as a profession. It's difficult to imagine myself as an adult because I'm told all the things I want to do isn't a real job. That I must do something normal people do, and normal people don't work for their passions. I hope that when I am an adult and established I never have to stop learning. I want to continue expanding my mind, being passionate in life, and truly enjoy whatever I settle to do as a profession. I want to be in love with the present. I never want to just be another grain of sand on the beach like most people, but I want to make at least a small difference.