Losing control

C H A P T E R 6

A U T H O R S | N O T E
     THIS IS MORE OF A FILLER CHAPTER SO IT WOULD'NT REALLY LEAVE YOU CONFUSED OF THE PLOT IF YOU SKIP IT. HOWEVER, YOU MIGHT WANT TO JUST READ THE ENDING TO UNDERSTAND HER DECISION.
             -xxanilevexx

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C H A P T E R 6|    Jake and I had been           together for a total of two years and three months. I met him sophomore year and fell head over heals for him. He was the perfect golden boy. Jake was sweet, charming and kind.

When he noticed me back in grade ten I couldn't believe that someone like him would even look at someone like me, a low life at the bottom of the food chain. He began to constantly show up everywhere and then asked me out. Of course I said yes, who wouldn't. He was perfect.

But after a couple of months things started to go down hill. I noticed that Jake had a girl in room and it was obvious what they were doing seeing as Jake hadn't been very discreet about it.

When it happened for the first two times he ran after me telling me he was sorry and claimed that he loved me but then he just stopped caring about what I thought. He became more aggressive and agitated with me. He didn't want to be seen with me in public and didn't want me to say a word about our relationship. I agreed of course because I loved him with all my heart. But I can't keep loving him anymore because it's seemed as though the passion that was supposed to be in our relationship, it was like a ghost, haunting us with its presence but not revealing itself. In short terms, our relationship was doomed from the start but I was to blind to see it and now I'm sitting outside Jakes flats door, crying my eyes out.

Pathetic, I know...

I stood up, deciding that it was finally time to move on from Jake. I shouldn't waste anymore of my tears in someone who evidently didn't give a rats behind about me, no matter how much they declared the empty words "I love you".

I shook my thoughts away and marched back home determined to finally be set free from the city and everything that I've once known here, in this small city, that I never truly felt at home.