Swan~ TaeJin ~

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Seokjin plopped on the couch, opening a bottle of Soju. He kept drinking to distract his mind, a month had passed since that cursed day and he missed them. All of them were so precious for Seokjin and he missed them all. Disgrace the fact that he missed Taehyung most of anything and this bothered him a lot. He didn't want to miss him with all those words darted toward him when he did nothing but fell in love.  Yes! He fell in love! Fell in love with Taehyung's sweet adorable loveliness and it wasn't even compared to the sexual attraction. He closed his eyes with a sigh. He hated himself for being such a weak person and missing Taehyung. He missed him a lot! That adorable sweet boxy smile and those eyes, he missed so badly but there was no way he would go back there again, not when Taehyung cleared out everything as if he was taking advantage of them. All he did was making himself happy for helping them and in the way, he fell in love too.  He realised he finished his bottle. He chuckled as he opened another one, he didn't see even Namjoon after what happened and he was so lonely. He wanted to be lonely all his life but this soon changed after he met the boys, Jungkook's playfulness, Jimin's angel-like smile, Hoseok's loud laugh at everything possible, Yoongi's grumpy but shy hidden smile and his Taehyung. Not his for sure, but he missed him so much and he was drunk enough to don't care about it. He took a huge shot when the doorbell rang, he walked there hazily not even cared to think who can visit at this time of night when eventually no one visited him even in the day time. He opened the door to Yoongi and Hoseok. He forced smile as he saw their smile.

"Long time no see hyung," Yoongi said as he plopped on the couch. Seokjin just started at them getting comfortable on the couch.

"I missed your place next to mine," Yoongi said again. Seokjin settled between them and drank his shot.

"I missed you too," Seokjin said honestly. He was emotional from this visit that he could cry if his ego would let him to.

"Why you didn't come to the studio then hyung?" Hoseok asked eyes filled with concern but a shiny smile on his lips. Seokjin stared at him deeply for what it seemed like minutes.  Yoongi sighed slightly.

"Look hyung we know what happened between you and Taehyung, he and Namjoonie told us everything and from the little, I got to know you I know that you are not that bad. We all have this stuff in our lives. My life is a drama as well as yours and Hoseokie's. Don't feel down of yourself for reaching out to what you wanted even if it was momentary and temporary. " Yoongi said. The drunk, weak brain of Seokjin couldn't respond better than to give a sheepish smile to Yoongi.

"I love you guys, and believe me I never thought of using you. Any of you, especially not Taehyung. I'm just a selfish coward." Seokjin said.

"Don't try to prove us something hyung, stop caring for other people's sentiments and care about your own thoughts and desires. Sometimes we lose ourselves in a work of satisfying other people till we forget what we really want and one day we will see everyone smiling to us but we are mourning for ourselves inside" Hoseok said. Seokjin looked up at the ceiling, he didn't want to break down, he didn't want to admit how their words were so true. He killed himself easily.

"Cry if you want Jin hyung" Yoongi whispered his hand on Seokjin's hand. Seokjin shook his head.

"How is he?" Seokjin asked with a cracked voice. Hoseok smiled and Yoongi squeezed his hand.

"Misses you, a lot.  " Hoseok answered.

"His eyes are always on the seat next to me" Yoongi chuckled. Seokjin smiled.

"He is no better hyung, he doesn't show a lot but Jimin told me. Not detailed but he needs you, especially that he got close to you after Seojoon left. " Hoseok said. Seokjin could feel his heart agonizing.

"I'm in love with him," Seokjin said, heart heavy and he wished he was here right at the moment.

"It's obvious hyung, everyone can see what you hold in your eyes for him," Yoongi said, hand caressing his hand still.

"Why he couldn't?" Seokjin asked sadly.

"Maybe you couldn't see his eyes too," Yoongi said. Seokjin couldn't utter a word.   He recalled every night they spent in this very own penthouse. They danced, talked and they lived there in an infinite space. Without care for where they were and what they were doing, it was just them. He wanted to slap himself,  Taehyung was the one coming always, he even didn't know the boy's address before they fought. He was an asshole and an idiot.

"You can fix it together hyung, go and talk to him before he turns insane," Hoseok said. Yoongi nodded afterwards.

"Don't care about anything but just yourself, your heart not even your ego or pride. " Yoongi said. Seokjin nodded before smiling at them.

"Stay over guys "

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I'm really sorry for the late update! I've been busy with studies and some one shots. I hope you enjoy this chapter and please do tell me your thoughts.
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