PERFECTLY IMPERFECT || KTHxREADER

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[Your POV]

"I guess he keep it from you since he always go here alone and when we're asking him about his kin to take charge of him, he always say that he's not in touch with them." He state and unlike minutes ago his aura change into more serious one.

"He needs to undergo an operation this next month. But I'm saying sorry in advance, we can't assure to cure him. His heart is too weak and his heart may not take the operation."

I'm still speechless, the details can't process properly.

The doctor pat my shoulder and leave.

I feel deep pity for Taehyung. He's no one to hold at his sad moments. How could this Angel suffer so much pain, he's a good person who deserve to be taken care.

I get a chair placed on the side of his bed and stare at him.

He's lips are pale as always but it looks paler this time, and there's a dark circles at the area of his eyes. He looks tired. Looking at the man who saved me make my chest tighten and broke my heart into pieces.

I'm laying my head on my arms while holding his hands and I feel it move a little so I look at him.

"You want something?" I ask straighten my clothes.

He smile and stare at me, but it's different. Feels like he's talking to my by telepathy and he looks like he wants to speak but something's holding back.

"I love you." He did caught me off guard, again.

Did I misheard it? He did what? Come again?

I chuckle nervously. "You're kidding, right?" I click my tongue and look away.

My mind is telling that he's just bluffing but my heart says otherwise.

"I'm not." He reply which is unexpected. "Did your head hits dangerously when you fall---."

I remember my psychiatrist saying. 'You're mentally unstable which can cause you confusion. For example, you may mixed up your wishes and realities.'

"I'm sorry but I think I should go." I stand and walk in a never ending hallway.

People are chatting and others are shouting for emergency but it feels like my body is numb and I can't hear anything because of the loudness of my heartbeat.

Stopping my tracks I found myself standing beside the old oak tree.

The rose-pink light of dawn spreading the sky was breathtaking.

To my surprise, my tears was rolling down again. And a pain in my chest strikes.

'I love you.' the words keep on repeating inside my head. I wish it's real and if it really happened I wish he meant it.

But of course it's just in my imaginations. I'm mentally ill so I shouldn't expect and give myself hope.

If this happen again, everything might come worse. But it's hard to fight... Knowing that I'm fighting a demon inside me.

My heart is filled with pain and sorrow.

"I'm sorry." I whisper and hug myself tight.