Unidentified (Taygunoff)

selfish??

"Sorry sorry but-"
I gesture him to sit down

Ah... This is frustrating, I want to smack my head and his tooo. How come he is on extreme level of ignorance???  isn't it clear both of them are in love with this pig head??? I was busy shipping them that I didn't know that there is creature from outer space.

Off already know me, but Tay don't know me yet, I have seen his jealousy last time when he was staring down at me while crossing each other in hallway. He could have killed me, when he saw seating on Gun's lap. ... Yeah I took glance and he was definitely boiling in anger.

I told Gun not introduced us, plus whenever they were together I can't help but to observe them secretly..... Creepy??? It's my hobby.

Since such cute but dumb creature is my best buddy , I can pair up him with every handsome guy. Noooo... I'm not the one who force Gun to talk about his sexuality, I still don't know. I have seen care in those cold eyes for Tay. There is for us also but you know special care goes to special person.

But I'm not sure anymore, it looks like not clearing things with Off also have effected him. Do he have feelings for him also?? 

Well OffGun is also not bad ship, he was caring and he always protected Gun.

Should I go for Offgun or Taygun???

Wait... Sam it's not that you can make decisions.

Wait let's ship OffTay or TayOfff???

Its mess in my head. Look at this puppy who is looking at me ....

"Gun, you seriously don't know they are in love with you??? From what I heard Tay always has been showing affection and he proposed too?? And Off even though he don't speak his mind, and I can't guarantee but it looks like to me that he is interested in you. "

"Sam you know me, I have hard time trusting people and I unsecured about those things... I'm afraid if I get too involved with anyone and if I can't keep things, if I can't express my feelings, if I priorities my personal space more than feelings... Things might end with lots choas.... I don't want to loose my only one's.. I can't tag our relationship but you guys are special for me that I can't bear loosing you"

"Soo, you think things are not complicated as it is?? You won't end up breaking friendship with both of them now?? " I can't help but let out sigh.

"............ "

"Gun, you nothing can be guaranteed, we cannot tell until when we will be together, do you think we will be same in future as we are?? Do you think there is guarantee about our friendship?? We both know we won't like to be apart, but we don't know what future will hold for us, we might get separate for various reasons even though it can be against our choice or it might be our choice. "

"Why you are saying these?? We will be together in future also. "

" But can you guarantee that?? That there won't be any changes in our relationship Gun??? "

"..... I won't let you go, I can't accept that"

"See you can't guarantee, do you guarantee we won't fight or get mad at each other?? "

"Sam, please, you are changing subject"

"No I'm not.... I understand you are insecure... But it's same for every one Gun. You can't protect yourself by getting hurt all the time... You are being selfish.... This way you might be not get hurt but you are hurting others unconsciously, you are ignoring there feelings ... Just  because you don't want to get hurt.
But Gun you will be in prison if you keep going on by your own, it will be your own prison . You will always suppress your feelings in order to not get hurt. But are you happy with that?? "

" At least ..... I won't be afraid, that someone might leave me, changes in someone behavior might be hurtful. In order to please someone, I might loose myself "

"Be honest, so you don't care about others feelings?? "

"...... " I don't know Sam, I don't know.

"I think you need time Gun, whatever you choose, don't regret. I will be there always by your side. "