Y/N
As soon as we stepped into the headquarters, I went into the room which was mine and closed the door behind me, sliding against it as I sat down on the floor.
I killed someone today
No scratch that,
I killed at least a hundred people today.
They could've had a family, with wife, parents, children, pets, etc. But I killed them.
My face went pale when I remembered the man I threw the knife at. He groaned and hit the floor, he had an engagement ring on his finger. He was probably engaged or married. But, I killed him.
I stood up as tears unknowingly spilled out of my eyes and walked to the bathroom, placing my gun and other weapons on the counter, before standing under the then turned on shower, fully clothed.
I closed my eyes, just to see the scene again. I thought showering like this would ease the pain, but it made it worse.
Suddenly, the shower was turned off and I was wrapped by something. I opened my eyes to see Jaehyun, who wrapped a towel around me.
He gave me a small smile, "Come on" He held my hand and helped me step out of the shower, drenched.
He took another towel and started to dry my hair while I stayed silent. Then, he took the dryer and dried them.
He walked out of the bathroom for a second, and then came back with a hoodie and sweatpants.
"These would be comfortable for you" And then he left the bathroom, closing the door behind to let me change.
"Are you done Y/N?" He asked from the outside, I muttered a "yes" and he opened the door to let me walk out and we both sat on the bed.
"Wait your makeup" he stood up and went back in the bathroom, only to comeback with makeup remover and wipes.
He sat down in front of me and gently wiped off my makeup. Then he placed the remover on the table and threw the used wipes in the dustbin, before sitting down on the floor, looking up to meet my eyes as I stared at him.
He gave me a soft smile, "You must be thinking why I'm here" he let out a small chuckle, "But I want to let you know that I've been through this too. I know how it feels, and I want to let you know that keeping it in will hurt more, so let it out. I'm here for you."
That's when tears started to flow, and sobs escaped from my mouth, uncontrollably. Jaehyun stood up and lifted me up in a bridal style, before placing me on the bed and sitting next to me as I hugged him burying my head into his chest, he held me in his arms.
"I've been through this. I know how it feels. But being alone at this time is the worst. Let it all out. I'm here for you" He whispered and kissed my hair and then placed his chin on it as I continued to cry.
Before sleep engulfed me, I heard him,
"We care for you Y/N, I care for you." He chuckled, "He cares for you, he just doesn't know how to fucking show it"

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