adira.

⭐️ quatre ⭐️

TRIGGER WARNING : SCENE WITH SEXUAL ASSAULT (I will say when it comes up)

'it's sad, actually, because my anxiety keeps me from enjoying things as much as i should at this age."

- Amanda Seyfried

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A week has passed and there hasn't been anything more than hateful glares from Xavier, spending more time with Issac and Alisa, tons of work and getting advice from my dad.

Give him a chance you never told him you was going to leave.

What my dad said to me has been stuck in my head all week and I know he's right. I need to explain to Xavier why I left I know that as well but I'm not ready. Sure I've been away for two and a half years but I also haven't seen him in that time. He'll think I'm pathetic and well he's not wrong for thinking that.

I shake my thoughts away and start to head to school. I have to walk as my dad had to leave early but I'm not complaining I have some alone time to calm myself before I enter hell.

My walks goes by quickly and before I know it I'm standing in front of school with anxiety filling up my body. It's been a week and I'm still reacting like this, there is something wrong with me.

I see Alisa walking towards me and I calm down a little. Issac, Alisa and I have gotten closer over the week and it's safe to say I consider us friends. It's nice to have people around that I can talk to and forgot my problems for awhile.

"Hey Adds, there's a party tonight do you want to come with me and Issac?" Parties were not my thing, at all. I admire how people can get together and be wild for a night but anything can go wrong. Alcohol, drugs and hormonal teens. Nothing screams more disastrous than those three things mixed together. As well as that I've had a few bad experience from going to parties so I'd rather not let myself be vulnerable to that once again.

"Erm Lis, I'm not sure..." I trail off feeling bad for rejecting her offer.

"But it'll be fun, I promise I'll stick with you all night and if you don't enjoy it we can leave straightaway," she tries convincing with me with will pulling a pleading face.

I think about it and I realise that it would be a chance for me to talk to other people who I haven't seen in years. I sigh and nod causing her to squeal in excitement.

"I promise you won't regret it Adds," she says excitedly.

"Alright lets go before I change my mind."

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"Watch where you're going," Xavier's hateful voice sneered at me. Not gonna lie but it kind of hurt because even when we fell out all those years ago he never used a tone like that on me.

"Sorry..." I mumble whilst looking down. I didn't mean to bump into him I was gonna be late and I was rushing.

"You could at least look at the person you're apologising to," he says angrily. Another thing you should know about me is that me and anger don't get on well. It sets off my anxiety and he knows that but I guess I deserve it...

"I'm sorry ok?" I say whilst looking up at him with tears in my eyes. For a split second I thought his eyes soften for a bit but that's soon replaced with anger.