Always a big deal •Ashton Irwin•

Chapter 17

"I'll see you tomorrow, right babe?"     

          

"Babe?"

"You're my non official girlfriend now, I'm allowed to call you babe."

"Okay, I guess you are. Goodnight Ashton."

"Wait, are you home yet?"

"Oh god, I'm right outside."

"I'll wait until you get in. I can't believe I let you walk home alone. It'll never happen again."

"You don't have to drive me around all the time. Goodnight baaaabe."

"Are you in yet?"

"Yessss... Goodnight."

"Sweet dreams."

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The whole situation is so unreal. It feels like those movies that you don't believe can even come true in real life, but if you're lucky enough you get to live in one and it feels like an endless dream. That's how Ashton makes me feel every time he's around and honestly I can't get enough of it. I'm still trying to let go more, but my insecurities are quite hard to handle. I want him to be a bigger part of my life. I like myself when he's around.

...

"So are you like a couple now?"

"I don't know. I don't think so."

"Kristie is gonna freak out."

"I know."

"You're not telling her anytime soon,are you?"

"You know me too well, Scott."

"I've missed you."

"You are only gone for five days."

"Sorry I missed my friend."

"I've missed you too."

"I really wanna meet Ashton already. Hope he's better than your last one."

                    

"He's perfect, you'll love him."

"You know, I ran into Logan yesterday."

"Your ex?"

"Yeah, he was like I think I miss you now that you're gone for good."

"Ironic?"

"Couldn't really tell, I just said well take care."

"Haha, you're so awkward."

"No, I'm not. I gotta go."

"Love ya."

...

All I want right now is to put my life in order. I'm not complaining, things keep getting better but there is always something you want so desperately that it's impossible to happen. For example, I want to change me, the way I see things, the way I act. I don't want to be shy anymore. I also want Scott closer to me, he is like my shelter. I love Kristie to death and I'm more than great full of her love, but there were times when I just needed the type of friend Scott is around me.

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Small and extremely late and I'm really really sorry.

Merry Christmas!!