Always a big deal •Ashton Irwin•

Chapter 15

"Today was perfect." I whispered.

"I wanted it to be. For you." He rubbed the back of my head and I tightened my grip around his waist.

We stayed like this for a while, melting in eachother's touch. It felt so right, so needed and I couldn't get enough of it. It was too early, too early for me to feel like this, but I couldn't help it. It was overpowering me, but it felt good. Too good to be true. I wasn't even worried about what was coming for us like I always do, I was given to this moment hoping it will never end.

His face was now right infront of mine.He cupped my face once more, brushing his thumb all over my cheek and I starred in his sparkling eyes almost out of breath. He leaned closer and my whole body was paralyzed but the feeling of his lips on mine. I kissed him back with all the strength I could restrain from my weak of his touch body. His kiss was deadly, every breath of his I felt on my skin made me lose control. That was the only ending I could imagine that can fit our night perfectly.

"You know, I wasn't planning to kiss you tonight. I thought it was to early, but I couldn't help myself. It was all I could think about. You are all I can think about." He was blushing. It was so cute. He is definitely not like most boys, he is something else. Something great.

"I'm glad you did. I couldn't be more happy about how things turned out tonight." I was expressing my feelings so easily. I was opening up to him without thinking it twice and it freaked me out. This is not me. I'm supposed to be worried about everything, I'm supposed to be terrified to express my feelings. Yet here I am making confessions with no regret. I like myself when I'm around him. I feel so open, so free. It's so refreshing

I've never thought I'd feel this way. It was too much, too soon but too perfect to even care. I think I'm falling for him. Hard. I can't stop thinking about him especially after tonight. Everything was so stunningly perfect and I couldn't be more obsessed.

Now I'm lying on my bed staring at the ceiling. Sleep isn't really an option since tonight won't leave my mind in any kind of peace. I seriously think I was brainwashed. That open minded, social skilled girl tonight was not me. Not to mention the feelings. Oh, dear God those feelings. They were something else, something new.

I never believed in love at first sight and all those movie scenarios. I always thought that falling in love with someone takes time. But the question is... Am I in love?

There's only one person who can make this clear, but unfortunately there will be consequences. That's a risk I have to take. I'm calling Kristie tomorrow. I know for sure that she'll enlighten me. I'll open up once again and hopefully I'll understand what that mind stealer named Ashton has done to me.

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A/N:  It's a small chapter but the content is worth it.

I'm thinking on changing the first chapters a bit. The plot will stay the same, but the grammar and voc parts lack a little compared to the last chapters and I think an upgrade is needed. I kinda changed my writing lately and want to improve the quality on my first chapter as well.

Anyway, thanks for reading:)