It's weird
To want to talk to you
Because
I already talk to myself a lot
And as you may remember
My head
It's voices
Take the form of people
People I wish I could talk to more
Talk to as if I knew them
And they knew me,
Sometimes it's a single person
And sometimes it's a crowd
Lately it's mismatched
Maybe one maybe some
But they all have one thing in common:
I haven't really talked with them
I haven't seen them and
Of course I haven't been with them
But it's just that even though I call them my friends
I feel like I don't know them
Because
I'm scared
To talk to them
I think it's because I don't know how they'd react if I just tried to come back
And I don't think I'd know how to feel if I came off different
But also I think It'd be better
Because I'd feel more natural
More like myself
And I think that maybe
My friends would feel better too
Or maybe they wouldn't but
I think It'd be better to actually talk to my friends
But wait, hold on
I started writing this for something else
Not something
But one
Someone.
