A Bed of Roses (Completed)

11.

Kai

After fussing and complaining for hours about the thoughts that were going through my mind about this date, 8pm seemed to fly around faster than I'd imagined.

"Kai." I heard Ferrow call me as I stood in the mirror nervously.

"Kai." She called again as I clasped my hands together.

"I'm coming." I'd told her with an attitude, rolling my eyes in the process but I still stood there without moving an inch.

For some reason my feet just wouldn't move.

Come on, Kai. You can do this.

You're a bad bitch. I thought to myself.

But as I stood there, I continued to look over myself, not knowing if I was showing too much or if I was just overthinking. I can't lie and say that my thoughts didn't have me overthinking everything about myself because they did and I was.

I just wanted to look nice.

"Kai, are you ready?" Mel bursted into my room as I stood there shaken up and she gasped once she saw me.

"Oh my god." She covered her mouth, looking me up and down.

"Who the fuck is this?" She smiled wide, easing my mind a bit.

"Is it too much for this kind of thing?"

"Be honest." I asked desperately, putting my hands out.

I usually didn't dress this proper, I would call it. I loved being a stripper hoe but my mind had really gotten to me and I knew Carter just wasn't another nigga.

I just felt I had to change things and I felt like I was in some type of competition with the girls I knew he was interested in.

Like Kate.

I watched as she shook her head frantically, looking me over.

"What? Sis, no."

"You went from hey bitch to excuse me, Miss Kai Lakewood." She spoke in two different tones, making me smile.

"Stop." I pushed her away softly as she continued to look over me.

"No seriously, sis. You look amazing."

"I mean either way." She shrugged, still looking at me.

"But like.."

"Wow." She couldn't stop saying and it made me feel a hundred times better. I can't lie.

This was a cute look, though being more covered up was completely different for me.

"Thanks, Mel." I told her as I pulled her in for a hug and I knew she could feel how shaky my body was when we did.

I couldn't stop shaking, I was so nervous for how this would go.

"You are nervous, ma ma." She spoke, pulling away and looking into my eyes.

"I know, I'm nervous as hell." I admitted, not even going to deny it like I'd planned. She ended up grabbing my hands though and shaking her head while looking over my face.