try to forget

a poem

in that moment
when I was sitting there
I thought of my journey to Rome and
of how much I didn't care
about you and all your talent to despair

just as I was thinking about it
I already started to doubt it
wasn't this just a trick of my brain
to keep me away from all that pain
that you lit

a hollow feeling scratches my soul
it's been lurking there for a while
I feel I've lost all control
since you stole my smile
did you wish for this role?

I don't know how much time it'll take
until my heart stops to ache
but I still remember the look on your face
and that memory isn't going to fade
because with that look you made my heart break

do you blame yourself of how things ended?
I shoved our pictures off my shelf
asking wether you just pretended
or ever felt as I did.

you took away so much from me
the worst thing would probably my childhood be
I've never had a life without you
and by the time I am writing this
I am crying because you're the one I miss 

• September/October 2019•