Never Be Alone {A.K x Reader x B.S. Fanfic}

Chapter 8: Triggering

{I know the whole book is a trigger warning but this specific chapter will go into detail about suicide. Please if you feel triggered by anything mentioned in this chapter or any part of the book, please read with caution.}

Tears filled my eyes and slipped down my eyes as I stared at myself in my room. Bruises and cuts appeared all over my face, neck and arms. I knew they covered my legs and even my stomach and back. I shake my head and look down at my hoodie. Slowly, I pick up the end of the hoodie and begin to slide it off feeling aching pains with every mood. But eventually the hoodie was off and I tossed it on the ground, feeling it land close to me.

I open the drawer and move a bunch of stuff around before finding a razor and a bottle of pills. I pull out both, setting them on the counter and shutting the drawer. I pick up the bottle of pills and read through the label. My eyes scanned and scanned and I threw them down, tears filling my eyes once again before I picked up the razor and began to mess with it, till I finally got the blade out. I threw the razor down, but held onto the blade. My teary Y/E/C eyes stared at it for a while before finally placing it to my skin on my wrist.

I pushed down, feeling the blade pinch my skin as I drove it down deeper. A small amount of blood began to come out till I finally said screw it inside my head and began to pull it down slowly. I kept going as yelps of pain escaped my bruised lips. I closed my eyes and picked the blade up then I opened my eyes. There I see blood pouring out and I quickly go to my other arm, pressing the blade in and pulling down my arm. Feeling jolts of pain and hearing my yelps escape. Within moments I back up dropping the blade and hitting the wall.

Slowly I allow myself to slide down the wall until I hit the ground. There I feel my eyes grow heavy with a sound of footsteps coming close to the bathroom. And within moments the bathroom door bursts open and my eyes close shut...

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Anna's POV

I open the door and walk in, closing the door behind me softly. When I turn back around I'm met with a pair of blue fiery eyes. I jump back, startled by the ginger haired girl as she stands with her arms crossed over her chest and leaning all her weight onto one leg.

"Well?" She said. I walked in more to the room and went over to the bed. I set my bag on the bed before walking over to a decently sized table in our hotel room. I set a bag of take out food on it and begin to rummage through it, hearing a huff and puff from Brittany. "Anna, what happened?"

"She talked to me..." I responded, my voice calm and a bit quiet.

"What?" The hint of shockness in Brittany's voice rose almost immediately. I shook my head from side to side, setting out the boxes of Chinese food on the table, before removing the bag off of the table and to the floor. Afterwards I take a seat on one of the chairs, finding Brittany doing the same and sitting opposite from me. "I need more explanation."

"What do you mean? She talked. Like, spoke like we're doing now. How much more explanation do you need Britt?" I opened my box of Chinese and took my chopsticks and began stuffing it into my face.

"Like why she talked? What did you say? What did she say? What happened?" I rolled my eyes at the ginger haired girl and shrugged my shoulders, taking another big bite of the food. A heavy sigh escaped Brittany as she took a bite of her own food before speaking once again. "We're not supposed to keep things from each other Anna. We could get in serious trouble for what happened with her."

"I get that Brittany, but we helped her. We really helped her and at least we didn't-" I stopped talking as a phone began ringing. I looked at Brittany and our eyes locked. Both of us stayed where we were as the phone kept ringing. Eventually I stood and went over to my bag, reaching in and rummaging through till I felt my phone vibrating. My eyes scanned the number and I quickly answered it.

"Hello...This is her...I'm on my way."