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Learn To Love Yourself - Niall Horan Imagine *Request

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Was listening to Ed Sheeran Photograph and it's kind of set a mood, so if you'd like to play that while you read I highly suggest.

It's been weeks since my break up with my ex Matthew. It's been weeks since I physically left my apartment and did anything in the outside world. I was completely shattered, the man I thought loved me for four years was cheating on me for the last year of it. When I found out I didn't believe it at first, thinking to myself 'why would he do such a thing?' He loved me; at least that's what I thought anyway.         A month ago I found out that he was in fact cheating on me with some random girl, I have never seen before. Of course after I finally found  out he was, I broke up with him and kicked him out of my apartment. Everyday since my best friend Niall has been trying to help me feel better and at first it was great but during those days I found myself slowly falling for him again. Crazy I know, how could I fall for my best friend?!
      This was like any other day, I was sat in my dark room staring at the tv, which played the same episode of friends for the fifth time; downing drink after drink. The burning sensation subsided long ago. I had no energy to change nor did I really want to get up at the moment. Some days are okay and I can move around and clean up the apartment a bit, but on days like this all I want to do is cry in my sorrow. Truthfully I'm over Matt, the truth was I'm crying because I know I'll never be able to find someone who loves me, no one to care for me and treat me how a woman should be treated. I will never be good enough for anyone. My mind was a battlefield of never's. I know I never will be loved.
     "Maria!!" I heard the familiar voice of my best friend Niall yell from the living room of my apartment. Every day after niall got off work he would stop by to check up on me, hating how I'm letting myself live like this and keep hating myself for him cheating. Right now it was the only way to ease the pain. Not receiving a response from me, I knew he would be on his way to my bedroom. Staring intently at the show, I heard the door open and who I assume was Niall stood in my doorway. "Oh my Maria, you really need to try to get out; you can't keep living like this."
"Look Ni I appreciate you coming and checking up o-n- m-e but I'm fine."I giggled feeling the liquor coarse through my body.
I didn't even have to look at him to know he was rolling his eyes, "obviously not, it's been two weeks since you broke up and that was because of him. You should not be wasting your time crying over him!"
He was getting annoyed and that made me become annoyed, "well I'm sorry Ni for feeling worthless and unlovable! I'm sorry that I realized no one will ever want to be with me or spend the rest of their life with them! You know I'm actually coming to conclusion that I will live and die alone..."
"Please Maria if you would stop sulking around over some a**, there's plenty of people that would love to make you happy if you allowed them too!"
This made me laugh at loud, I know it was harsh but I did not care; I was upset and was to drunk right now "right and who's that huh? You? Like you would even lo-" before I could finish my sentence everything went black.

   ~The Next Morning~

      I woke up to a pounding headache, as the memories from the previous night began flooding my head; before I could cry and begin hating myself again I decided to go get a pain reliever and a glass of water. What felt like forever, I finally forced my body up and sat on the edge of the bed, going slowly so I didn't get dizzy. I looked over at the bedside table to check the time, that was when I noticed a glass filled with water and what look to be to pain relievers already placed next to my phone. Knowing Niall was the one who did this made a very tiny smile form on my cheeks. He is always there for me. Once I drank the water, I made my way to my bathroom and looked into the mirror. Eyes bloodshot, cheeks tear stained, hair going every which way and that was only a few things. I looked absolutely horrible. I grabbed a dry face cloth and ran it under warm water, before wiping my face. I then got out of my stained pyjamas and began a warm shower. Some days I'll get enough strength to shower and clean myself, but now I needed one after sitting in my bed for days.
       Twenty minutes later and I was finally finished and freshened up. Once I was out of my shower, I made my way to my closet to pick out something clean and comfy; which happened to be a pair of leggings and a (y/f/c) hoodie. I was now feeling fine enough to go grab a coffee and some food, so I decided to make my way to the kitchen to hopefully find something. Like I said I haven't left my house in a while, but gratefully Niall brought me things when he could. I was passing the living room when I noticed someone asleep on the couch, and you guessed it, it was Niall himself. Knowing that he probably stayed up late to deal with the emotional drunk wreck I was, I decided to let him continue sleeping. I finally made it to the small modern style kitchen, that also had a dinning room to the left when you walked in. I began making a bowl of cereal and brewed a pot of coffee(or tea if you prefer), I sighed breathing in the scent as I poured the hot water into the mug. Once I was finished I made my way to the back door, that was behind the dining table, my bowl and drink in hand and walked out onto the small balcony that was over looking the small town.
Fifteen minutes passed by and I was finished eating but I still sat out in a chair just watching everything around me. This was the only time I left the house, but this was also my escape place. A place where I could just forget about most things. All of a sudden I heard the back door open and listened as someone walked out onto the balcony, Knowing exactly who it was I didn't even turn around. "Hey.... how are you doing?" Niall asked, his voice very soft almost sounding afraid to make me cry.
"I mean besides the pounding headache, I'm okay I guess..." I asked, sighing and still not making eye contact with him.
   "Maria?"
   "Hmm?"
   "How long is it going to take for you to realize how much I actually care for you? How long is it going to take for you to notice that there's is someone right here who loves you very much and who would do anything for you?" He exclaimed frustrated. My eyes grew wide and I immediately looked over to Ni, who was sat in the other chair. "It hurts me so much to see you so upset, and thinking no one loves because you're wrong. I love you Maria, I always have and I always will." He looked towards me and before I could form any words, I saw him lean in and the next thing I know we are kissing. Not to sound cheesy but it felt so perfect and wonderful, everything I once thought about disappeared and I honestly didn't want it to end.
     "Niall, you know I've always really liked you it's just I thought I could never be good enough and that's why I found Matthew. The only way to get rid of my crush over you, was to find someone else but in all honesty after everything I realized that I never got over you. I am so grateful to have you in my life.." I smiled a true genuine smile, which Niall returned.  "I love you Ni"
    " I'm so happy to have you In my life too Maria"  he smiled back, before leaning in to kiss me again.