Love, Miss C

Slowing down

10 June 2020

I just realised something.

This year started off fast, and I continued keeping up the fast pace. The first few months I was constantly rushing from assignment to a place I had to be, from one thing to another. Life was one big blur of constantly being busy, so so busy. If I wasn't busy with studying for a test, then I was busy cleaning the apartment, shopping for groceries, running errands, being at every social event, and stating my presence everywhere I possibly could. Sleep and self-care was literally on the bottom of my priority list, and I honestly would have burned out if it wasn't for Corona forcing me to go home and slow down.

I did not make enough time for my friends, my family, or my boyfriend. I did not even slow down to make time for myself. I was so busy trying to not miss out on a single thing in my first year at University, that I didn't even realise that I was missing out on myself.

I was lost. My life was meaningless and void, I became a shell of a person who was trying to fill my life with adventures, all the while not realising that I really just needed to find myself in order to be fulfilled.

Yet, being forced to stay at home, caused me to realise my fault. I started to sleep enough, eat healthy, exercise, and journal. I did what I love; listening to music, take long, warm baths, read and go out into nature. All this self-care slowly filled me up again. My life regained purpose, and for the first time in a long while, I became truly happy again.

Who would ever think that all this extrovert needed to find herself, was a little bit of alone time?

With this, I encourage you to slow down. Open your eyes and see the beauty in the world, inhale deeply and appreciate every smell, feel the sun on your skin, or the hot water of the shower as it cleanses you from head to toe. Purify your body by drinking more water and eating healthy. Experience ultimate joy while listening to your favourite song and humming the lyrics. Allow yourself to become totally absorbed into that book.

Take care of yourself. Slow down.
These simple things made me find myself again.
I hope they help you to do so, too.

~ Miss C