Trapped In a Mind She Kills || awaited sequel to: Trapped In Kio Cyr

Chapter 4 : "brick words."

Word Count: 956

    My aunt, Josh, my four cousins, and my grandma. All of us on our way to what could be mother's death bed. And my worst nightmare. I've been in denial all week ever since the seizure, convincing myself that she's not actually going to leave my life. Trying so hard I don't even think about it. She's been in a coma for days, the first seizure at our house that night caused by alcohol. I knew my mother had epilepsy, I was never informed but years ago when dad was still around they told me she was very sick and that's why she was in the hospital. I later overheard she had a seizure in her sleep caused by epilepsy.

I guessed she never told me because she never wanted me to worry and be prepared for this day to come. Half of me wished she did. 

Before we all left my aunt filled me in on everything. We all got a call telling us to come immediately to the hospital.

Stepping out of the car Vereena, my cousin, squeezes my hand letting me relax a little. We all sit down and wait for whatever news is to come.

A few minutes later a nurse comes walking in and we all rise as she begins to open her mouth,

"Hello, I'm Dr. Orozco. I've spoken to some of you on the phone in the past week. In Mrs. White medical records, she's been diagnosed with epilepsy. When your mother came in that night she was out for a couple days, until she woke up and we ran tests. Which showed she had alcohol in her system. If Mrs. White has been in a good state of health then the seizure probably was caused by the alcohol she had consumed. It was quite an excessive amount which is a little confusing. But about three days later she had another seizure in her sleep. Of course we've had to come to a fact that when there's a seizure it can cause many and many more seizures. Which I understand that she's just had enough and this one was it, so by that I have to inform you," she says looking down.

"She's passed away," her words say.

Everyone falls, their arms wrapped around another, and crying into their hands. I don't get how they can just .. process that and start getting emotional. The words hit me like a brick where I'm just, in shock. Did I really lose the only other person I had. Is the woman that's been with me my entire life really gone? Am I now just simply alone. Oh my god .. she's gone.

My eyes don't let out water as they have been emptied already when I back up against my chair. Any breaths that I do have, start to become shorter. I tug at anything and start to shake. I notice I'm screaming when I get the whole hospital's attention. Vereena comes running to me hugging me and I dissolve into her hug. Crying every little bit of hell out.

"No! No! It's not true! Please there's no way! She's no- no she's not actually! She can't be!" I yell even louder as Vereena rubs my shoulders trying to calm me down. How? How can everybody act so calm and not notice my mother just fucking died?!

I shrug her off and walk to the nurse like a crazy person, and I can tell just by her terrified face when I near her.

"This, isn't true. She not DEAD!" I yell in her face. Josh is able to get ahold of me when he stands up holding me back as I continue to yell in the nurses face thrashing against Josh's tight hold.

"No..." I stop yelling and come to my senses.

I turn around into the man that allowed me to have my sex tape leaked, to be a prize for money, and to give my mother, that would be gone very very soon, shit she didn't deserve because I took all my rage out on everybody but myself.

I punch him hard in the chest and he continues to grip onto me trying to comfort me. After a few more tears I start to cry into him and sink down to the ground as he goes down with me never letting ago as everybody hears my tears in the hospital.

I have feeling,

I'll need to get used to this.

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Author's Note:

Hiii !! ik it's been so long since i've updated and i'm so so sorry. i haven't got so much time to write jut because of some personal issues. my brain isn't really where it needs to be, and i've just been kind of trying to get it in the right spot. but i've been finding myself and just learning so much different things w different people it's amazing. but now i have to time soo :))

but besides that, we have a terrible problem in the US rn that totally needs to get fixed and it has been slowly but have such a long time to go!! I've created a list of links on my link tree w petitions, donations, bills, and so many other things. it would really really help out with just another voice to be used so make sure u use your voice <3

here's the link : https://linktr.ee/yak.victoriaa

i will probably be updating later tonight but i've been up writing all day and my sleep schedule is shit so when i wake up i'll edit the next few chapters and publish them <3

but lmk ur thoughts and everything :)

okay , love uuu bye, talk soon. 🤍