Being His Girl

Kabanata XXIII

Ilang araw kong inisip ang mga sinabi ni Kairish sa akin. Should I take her advice? I once acted desperate and it didn't end up very well. But, come to think of it, what I did to Aezach is not really desperate move. Siguro ang muntikan ng maghubad sa harap niya ay medyo desperada na ngang galaw pero hindi naman ako umabot sa punto na ipinagsiksikan ko ng sobra ang sarili ko sa kaniya. Kaya masasabi kong hindi siya worth it dahil hindi ko naman ginawa ang best ko.

Best my ass.

I swear, isa sa mga pinagsisihan kong ginawa sa buhay ko ay ang muntikan ng maghubad sa harap ni Aezach. He used that to tease me and piss me off.

I love Xavier so much and I can't imagine him being with Annivia or with any women. Kaya ko bang kunin ulit ang loob niya? If I moved desperately he will love me again?

Napabuntong hininga ako. Kung ano-ano ang pumapasok sa isip ko. I shouldn't move without thinking if I don't to regret it after.

"Doc, can you share your thoughts?"

I looked at the man sitting in my visitors chair.

Today is my duty as a Doctor and the man in front of me is the guardian of my patient.

"I'm sorry if I'm spacing out." Kumurap pa ang aking mga mata nawala sa pag-iisip. "Anyways, as I was saying, okay naman si Nicole. But, I think she needs to take some rest. Huwag masyadong mapapagod dahil baka atakihin siya lalo ng asthma niya. She can play, but, she should rest."

"That's good to hear, Doc." He smiled at me and looked at his niece. "You heard, Doc. Ganda, Nicole? Stop playing and always rest."

I frowned at what I heard. First, because he called me Doc. Ganda and second because he's teasing his niece. Kanina ko pa napapansin he likes bullying his niece.

Inirapan lang siya ng batang babae at ako ang hinarap.

"Do I still need to go here every month?" Nakanguso niyang tanong.

She's only six years old but, she sounded like matured when she talked. Mas mukhang mature pa mag-isip ang batang ito kaisa sa kasama niyang guardian.

I wonder where is her parents at itong Tito niya ang nagdala rito sa clinic.

I smiled at her, "Why? You don't want to see me anymore? Do you think I'm ugly that is why you don't want to see me?" I joked.

Kumunot ang noo niya at agad umiling.

"Of course not. You're beautiful, Doc. I will never get tired looking at you, but, it's just like I want to play better than going here."

Pumula ang pisnge ko sa sinabi ng batang ito. Bata pa lang at marunong ng mangbola.

"This is my Uncle's fault." Sumama muli ang tingin sa kaniyang Tito. "The last time my asthma attacked is two months ago, but, my Uncle said he wants to se-"

"Shut up, buddy!" Agad tumayo ang kaniyang tiyuhin at binatak na siya patayo. "We should go. Masyado ka ng madaldal."

Sinundan ko sila ng tingin papunta sa pinto. Bubuksan na sana iyon ng lalaki pero agad din siyang huminto.

"By the way, Doc." He paused and looked at me. "You're really beautiful, but, you look horrible."

Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba ako o maiinis sa sinabi niya dahil hindi ko rin alam kung nang-aasar lang ba siya o pinupuri talaga ako.

Do I really look like horrible? As in, right now?

"I think you need this." Binitawan niya ang pamangkin at may binunot sa kaniyang bulsa.