Meet Me When I'm Asleep

Chapter 14 - Nightmares

Jongin's POV

This was the first time in years that Im sleeping in a different apartment without Jennie. I miss her a lot. Even if during weekdays we won't normally spend time with each other.

I was starting to think that maybe this was all my fault. I remember that night when she told me I was always too focused on my art. Maybe I took her for granted. But then what's with all the secrets that she couldn't seem to explain?

I knew she was lying when she said she didn't know that Mino, that she just met her in her dreams. I just had this strong gut feeling that she was with Mino and I had to find since when it happened.

When I realized that it was only ten at night, I got out of the bed and wore my clothes then grabbed my car keys.

"Hey, where you off to?" I heard Krystal ask me from behind.

"I just need to take care of something," I mumbled, making my way to the door.

"You're not going to go drinking more, are you? Because if you are, I'm going with you."

"No I'm not, Krystal," I chuckled. "I'll see you in a bit."

It took me only ten minutes to drive to the building of our apartment, well, right now just Jennie's apartment.

I parked my car outside and entered the building. I couldn't find the landlady to ask about Jennie, so I walked up to the second floor, hoping that I wouldn't bump into Jennie. But knowing her, she was probably sound asleep by now.

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Jennie's POV

I was already used to just switching worlds the moment I drifted off to sleep. However, these days, I didn't feel as giddy as usual especially now because I still couldn't get my mind off Kai.

The next morning, I woke up with quite the opposite disposition. The past few days I've never been so excited to end my day just so I could go back to sleep. It may have dragged my social life (not that I ever had any) down in the dumps, but man I've been living the life in my dreams.

But then actually living real life was such a drag. Words couldn't even explain how depressing it felt. It's like I was living two completely different lives; one where I was happy and content, and another where I just felt somewhat desolated.

I've never been alone in my life, and having Kai mad at me at the same time wasn't helping. However, there was one thing that was helping - and that was Lisa. My reality may suck at the moment but she's there to make things better when I go to sleep. She makes me forget about everything, and right now that's all I really need.

When I got home from work, all I had for dinner was a sandwich and a glass of milk. At first I was about to prepare something heavy, but then I remembered I was alone. It was a bit hard to get used to, I mean, I did live with Kai for as long as I can remember.

It actually took a lot of strength to finish my food without crying. My mood has been extremely bipolar for days. Whenever I would wake up it's like I have a hangover of what I did with Lisa in my dream, and then towards the end of the day I start missing Kia and I end up cursing myself. Sometimes I wish I never had to be in this situation, but then that would mean not having Lisa as well, not that I literally had her.

Towards the end of the night, I decided to watch comedy films to get my mind off things.

The ambiguous sound of laughter coming through the television speakers was just like choppy background music to my actual reflections. It wasn't long enough before every single noise in the apartment stood out to me. The tiny drops of water from the faucet, the sounds of the window panes slamming against each other whenever the cool wind would blow, and even the sound of the wind itself was getting louder than my own thoughts.