anorexia ; kth ♡ jjk

chapter 9

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"they're saying you want me"

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as soon as those words left my lips i suddenly became hyperconscious of what i had just said.

jungkook what the fuck is wrong with you.

i looked back up at taehyung.
he looked tense.
his eyes no longer contained that sparkle they previously held but instead were piercing and as black as the night.

"t-taehyung ?" i hesitantly said in a soft voice.
i approached him, slowly, and held out my hand for it to touch his shoulder to try and get him out of what seemed to be the weird trance he was in.

i tried calling him again.
"t-tae?"
his face was facing the ground and his pretty blue locks hid his face and i couldn't discern his emotions at all.
i tried brushing his bangs away so i could properly see his traits but as soon as my hand brushed his hair,
he suddenly pushed my hand away in a violent movement.

taehyung's pov :

i realized what i had just done.
i snapped out of my trance and
jerked my head up.
jungkook looked so tiny standing in front of me like that, so small..
it felt like i was a giant standing in front of a dwarf. looking down upon him from above.
i could basically crush him if i wanted to.
not that i did.
but i was scared.
he looked much too fragile. too breakable.

he was holding his wrist that i had accidentally pushed away, maybe a little too violently.
he had tiny wrists. he was pale too.
god he was beautiful.

i wanted to hug him right then and there.
he looked at me with those pretty brown eyes, worriedly.
he was waiting for me to say something. anything.
he was anticipating. i could tell.

don't get me wrong.
that thing he had just said to me.
that phrase about my eyes.
it made me happy.
but
it also made me scared..
and as soon as he had said it i had suddenly remembered.

"taehyung you're so cute. as soon as you see me you're eyes light up and sparkle. they always say that you want me."

stop.
go away.
i didn't want to hear that again.
i didn't want to remember.
i tried so hard to forget so why was it coming back now ?

"tae?"
i looked back up at jungkook.
he looked worried and maybe-
scared...?

of me ?

and then i fled.
i don't want things to repeat themselves that's all.
maybe i shouldn't have left him there.
i don't know.

am i a coward ?

jungkook's pov: