I watch as everyone stands over zach, asking if he's okay. "Why would you do that? What's wring with you?" Jenna said to me. I feel myself go numb. I don't know what's happening right now. I would never do that to zach. I look around and don't see corbyn. The boys help zach up and he looks at me, still bleeding from his nose. "Get your shit together, Riley." He said before he walks out. Everyone follows him except for Jonah. He just looks at me, concerned. "I....I don't even know what happened." I said. "He'll be fine.....but will you?" He said before he walks out. Now I'm in the room all by myself. I sit down on the bed and lay my head in my hands. What's happening to me? Why am I acting this way? Yelling at Jenna, punching zach. What else will I do when I lose control? I start to think. Why am I doing this to everyone? Why am I still around if all I do is make bad things happen? There's no point in leaving and going far away because I have to money and no place to stay. I'm stuck in this horrible life and I'll never be able to escape.... wait.... there is one way I could escape. I stand up off the bed and walk into the bathroom, closing the door behind me. I hear everyone talking in the living room. "I'm seriously concerned about Riley. Has she ever acted this way before?" I hear Jonah's mom ask. "No. Never." Jack said. "Maybe we should get her help." I hear corbyns mom say. "Or maybe we should just leave her alone." Jenna said. It's silent for a second. "Maybe all she needs is space." She added. "You're right. Let's just leave her be for now." I heard Jonah's mom say. I look at myself in the mirror. "Look at you....you disgust me." I said to myself as I start to cry. I open the cabinet above the sink and see a orange bottle of pills. I take a deep breath and take them off the shelf. I open them and see that there's a bunch in there. I pour most of the bottle in my hand and look at myself in the mirror. Finally, my pain is about to end. I can be free. I put all the pills in my mouth and fill up my mouth with water, swallowing them. They're small so a lot was easy to swallow. I breathe really fast and heavy, scared, even though I've done this to myself. It needs to be done.
10 minutes later, I realize I'm drenched in sweat as I pace back and forth in the bathroom. I start to get a really bad chest pain that makes me fall to the floor. I knock over the pills and they all fall on the floor. I groan as I hold my chest and I shake more than I ever have before. I start to get a pounding headache that makes my vision blurry. "What was that?" I hear Jonah say. I hear footsteps get closer and closer to the door as I start choking up white foam. I shake so much that it seems like I'm having a seizure. The door opens and I see Jonah. "Oh my god! Oh shit!" He yelled at he gets down on his knees and puts his hand on my arm. "Someone call 911!" He yelled. I continue to spit something up as I shake. I see Jonah's mom run into the room and sit next to me as well. "It's okay, hunny. You're gonna be okay." She said as she cries. I see Jonah crying as well. I start fading when I see corbyn run into the room as well. "Riley!" He cried. "What happened?!" He added. "I think she tried to kill herself." Jonah said. Corbyn cries as he kisses my forehead. "I love you, Riley. I love you so much." He said as I start to pass out.
I hear soft beeps in a little rhythm as I slowly open my eyes. I see corbyn smiling as he holds my hand. "Hey. You're okay." He said to me. I look around and see that I'm in a hospital room. I see everyone else. They smile at me, sympathetically. "I'm alive?" I said with a shaky voice. "Yeah." Corbyn said with a smile. I start crying. "What? What's wrong?" He asked me. "I wanted to die!" I cried. "Riley..." he said as he grabs my hand. I shake my hand until he lets go and I unhook all the cords attached to me. The machine starts to flatline and I get out of bed. A bunch of nurses and doctors run in as I cry. "Okay, get back to bed." The doctor said. "No, please! I wanna die!" I said as they try to grab me. I fall to the floor and they hold my hands down. I try to push them off but I'm too weak. I look at the boys, jenna, Ashely, Jonah's mom and corbyn's mom. They all look scared and worried. "Just calm down." The doctor said as he pulls a needle out of his pocket. He stabs it into the side of my arm. "Get off of me! I wanna die! I wanna die!" I yell. I can't believe I overdosed and still didn't die. When can it just be over already? I start to feel really tired from the sedative the doctor just stuck into my arm. I try to fight it but it's just too strong. I start to fade away as the doctor gets off of me.
