[i edited the last chapter cause I messed it up ahah]
I hear the door creak open as I wake up. I open my eyes and see corbyn peaking his head through. "Oh, hey. I was just checking on you to see if you were still asleep." He said, walking into the room. He walks over to me and sits on the bed with his legs hanging off the side. "I'm sorry for yelling at you on the plane." I said with a raspy, tired voice. "It's okay. Jack told me everything." He said. Oh no. What if he's angry with me? "Are you mad?" I asked. "Of coarse not. But you should've asked me first so I could've gave you the correct dosage." He said. I nod. "That's for being so patient with me. I have weird coping mechanisms. Especially with anxiety and depression to top it all off." I said. "You don't have to thank me. I care about you. I always will." He said. I smile as he tucks the fly away hairs behind my ear. "Now come downstairs. You need to eat something." He said. I rub my eyes and nod as I get out of bed. I look at the time and see that it's 10:00am. I slept through the night. We walk downstairs and I see everyone eating breakfast at the table. "Hey, sweetheart. Are you hungry?" Corbyns mom asked. I nod even though I'm not really. I sit down. "I'm sorry for stealing your bed yesterday." I said. "No, it's okay." She said. "We're gonna have the funeral tomorrow. Me and Jonah's mom picked a place and a casket." Corbyns mom said. "Was it expensive? I can pay you back." I said. "You don't have to pay me back. It was Jonah's mom who bought it." She said. "My mom and sisters just landed. I'm gonna go pick them up." Jonah said as he walks out of the house. My body starts shaking. I'm scared to see Jonah's mom and sisters because they were with Jenna when she got hit by a car and died. "I can't do this. I can't see them knowing that they were there and could've stopped it." I said as I stand up. "Riley, you can't blame them. You weren't there." Daniel said. "Oh and you were?" I said with attitude before I walk upstairs into corbyns room. "No but-" he said as his voice trailed off. I lay down on the bed and start to cry. I don't know how I'm gonna be able to go to the funeral if I'm already acting up. I hear a knock on the door as I sob. The door opens and I see Ashley. She walks over to the bed and sits next to me. She gives me a hug as I sob. "What's wrong?" She asked. "I can't do this. I can't pretend like everything is okay." I cried. "You don't have to if it's not." She said as we stop hugging. "I don't want to be rude to anyone but...I just get angry when they pretend to know how I feel." I said as I cry. "I know." She said, rubbing my back. I take a deep breath and wipe my tears. "I kinda feel like I'm not in control of my body when I get too mad or too sad. So I just go off on someone or start crying." I said. Before Ashley can say anything, corbyn opens the door and walks into the room. We both look at him as he sees that I've been crying. "Awww, Riley. What's wrong?" He asked. "Get out, corbyn. We don't need you here asking these stupid questions." Ashley said. I look at her and she smiles at me. She gets me. She really gets me. "This is my room." Corbyn said to her, rolling his eyes. "Fine. Riley, you can stay with me in my room." Ashley said. "But she's my girl-" he said before stopping himself. I think he was gonna girlfriend. "She's my best friend." Corbyn said. "Yeah but all you boys are overwhelming her." Ashley said. Corbyn sighs. "I promise I won't overwhelm you. Just please, can you stay in here with me tonight?" He asked. I don't want to because I feel like such a burden. I feel like I yell at him when he doesn't deserve it or I blame him for stuff that he can't control. "We'll see." I said.
An hour later, I hear someone call my name from downstairs. Corbyn and Ashley left me alone for an hour to cool off. I get off of corbyns bed and walk downstairs. I see Jonah's mom, Esther, and svea standing there. Jonah's mom hugs me right away. "I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry." She said as she starts to cry. I take a deep breath, trying not to cry. When she stops hugging me, I look at her as she wipes her tears. Then I look at Esther. She's trying not to cry so bad. "Hey." I said, quietly. She gives me a hug. Then I look at svea. She looks a little shy. I stretch out my arms to give her a hug. She lightly hugs me and then backs away really quick. "I have everything arranged for tomorrow. The food, the people. Everything." Jonah's mom said. "Okay." I said, not really caring about any of it. Jenna is gone and nothing matters.
At night time, we all sit on the couch and watch a movie. Corbyn puts his arm around me and for the first time since we broke up, I regret breaking up with him. I look at him and watch as he laughs at something from the movie. He notices I'm looking at him and he looks at me. "What?" He asked. "I love you." I said. He smiles and puts his hand on my cheek, leaning in towards me. I move closer to him and our lips crash together. We stop kissing after 5 seconds and we both smile. "Can we please get back together? I'm a mess knowing you're not mine." He said, quiet enough so only I can hear. I smile. "I'll always be yours, corbyn." I said. He smiles and kisses me again. "Let's go to bed early." He said with a wink. I laugh a little as we both strand up. "We're gonna crash. See you guys tomorrow." Corbyn said. "Good night." Everyone said at once. "Wait, Riley, can I talk to you for a minute?" Jonah's mom asked. I really don't want her to kill my mood. I'm a little bit happy and now she's gonna ruin it. "Tomorrow." I said before me and corbyn walk upstairs, holding hands. When we get far enough upstairs so no one can see us, we run into his room. We laugh as Corbyn closes the door and we fall into his bed. "I've been waiting to do this since we broke up." He said. "Am I that good?" I joked. He laughs. "Better than you think." He said. I laugh as we take off our clothes and kiss.
I lay on corbyns shirtless chest and listen to his heartbeat as he sleeps. I was so stupid for letting him go. I close my eyes and try not to think about tomorrow.
