Two days later, Jenna and Jonah's mom left to go back to Minnesota. The whole week, I've been sleeping non stop. I only get out of bed to go to the bathroom. I don't eat much. I eat a little bit everyday or every other day. The boys come in my room a few times a day to try to talk to me or ask me if I need anything. Usually I don't answer because I just wanna be alone. Corbyn comes in every night to sleep. He stopped having his nightmares so that's good. Usually he leaves me alone and doesn't talk to me because he knows I won't answer. I feel like, if I stay in my room all day, maybe I won't fuck things up like I always do. I don't have motivation to anyways. Like, what do I have to get out of bed for? I don't have anything else to live for.
"Hey, Riley. Are you awake?" I heard Corbyn say as the door opens. I open my eyes and see him, smiling. "I have good news. The doctor said your heart is strong enough to go back to LA. So we got a flight for tonight." He said as he sits next to me on the bed. I don't say anything. "Are you excited?" He asked. I roll over and pull the blanket over my head. I don't even feel like moving so I really don't feel like flying. "Can you please talk to me. I haven't heard a word from you in a week and I really miss you." Corbyn said. I don't move. "Please." I hear his voice crack like he's crying. I turn over and look at him. "I just want you to be okay." He said as he starts to cry. Oh shit. Now I feel bad. I sit up and give him a hug. "I'm sorry." I said softly. We stop hugging and he wipes his tears. "I just miss you so fucking much." He said. I rub his arm. "I'm gonna try to get better." I said. He nods and looks at me. "I love you so much. I'm never gonna stop loving you." He said. Then he kisses me. We're broken up but I don't stop him. I love him more than I've ever loved anyone in my whole life. And I wanna be better...for him. "So, you should start packing." He said. I nod and he smiles, giving me another kiss. "That was the last one, I promise." He said. I grin a little and nod as he walks out. I lay back down and sigh. I really don't feel like walking around an airport later but we can't stay at corbyns moms house any longer. She's done so much for me though. I get out of bed, for the first time today, and change my clothes. I just put on sweatpants and a sweatshirt because I truly don't care anymore. I look in the mirror and see that my hair is a mess so I brush it out. My face is pale white and I have such dark circles under my eyes. I look truly exhausted. I wanna get better but I can't. I'm just giving up. I can't fake a smile anymore. It hurts.
When I'm done packing, I grab my suitcase and walk out of corbyns room. Everyone looks at me and gives me a sympathy smile. "Hi, sweetheart. Are you hungry?" Corbyns mom asked me. "Can I have water?" I asked quietly. "Of coarse you can. I'll get that for you." She said before she walks into the kitchen. I get caught off guard by a hug from zach. He groans as he hugs me really hard. "Zach, give her so space." Jonah said as he laughs a little. "Sorry. I just missed you." He said. "I wasn't gone." I said. "It seemed like you were." He said. He's right. I nod. "I'm sorry." I said. "We just want you to be okay." Daniel said. "I'm trying to be." I said. I don't know if I'll get better but we'll see. Then, corbyns mom gives me a glass of water. "Thank you." I said. She gives me a hug. "Are you okay?" She asked me. I nod. She puts her hand on my cheek. "You're very pale." She said. "I'll take care of her." Corbyn said. I look at him and he grins. "We better get to the airport before we miss our flight." Jack said. "I'll drive you guys there. Go put your suitcases in the trunk." Corbyns mom said. "Okay." Jack said. We all grab our suitcases and go outside, putting them in the trunk of her car. We all get in the car and drive to the airport.
When we get there, we all hug corbyns mom and Ashley goodbye. "It was nice meeting you." Ashley said to me. "You too." I said. "You can call me or text me if you wanna talk to a girl." She said looking around at the boys. "Thanks." I said, laughing a little. I hug corbyns mom goodbye after everyone else does. "Thank you for having me in your home. I'm really sorry I couldn't get out of your hair any sooner." I said. We stop hugging. "It was seriously a pleasuring meeting you and having you in my home." She said. "I'm sorry I was such a burden. I'm just going through some stuff." I said. "You're not a burden at all, sweetheart. And I know you are. I hope things get better." She said to me. "Thank you." I said. "Okay. Bye." Corbyn said. "Bye!" Corbyns mom and Ashley said at the same time. We pick up our suitcases and walk into the airport. After a few minutes, all the loud noises and walking around is starting to make me panic. I start shaking and having a little trouble breathing. I start to feel panicked, like something bad is gonna happen if I'm not stuck in my bedroom. "Corbyn." I said as I try to breathe but I can't. He turns around and looks at me, seeing that I'm having a panic attack. "Riley, what's the matter?" He asked. That got the other boys attention and they turn around and look at me. "I can't breathe." I said, quietly, trying to breathe but nothing is coming in. "Are you having a panic attack?" He asked as people walk past us, brushing against me. I nod as tears fall from my eyes. "Okay, lets go to the bathroom." He said as he grabs my hand. We quickly walk to the nearest bathroom, which happens to be a family bathroom so we can both go in. Corbyn opens the door, not letting go of my hand. "Wait out here. She needs as much space as possible to calm down." Corbyn said to the boys. "Okay." Jack said as the door closes. I sit down on the toilet as I cry and try to breathe. I feel like something bad is going to happen any minute now. "Calm down, okay? Just calm down." Corbyn said as he holds my hand. "I can't." I said as I cry and gasp for air. "Just close your eyes." He said. I close my eyes and try to think happy thoughts. I start thinking about me and corbyn in the future. We'll have a big house with a big yard and a pool and we'll have children. Maybe. I feel myself starting to calm down. My eyes are still closed when I feel Corbyn lightly wiping my tears with a paper towel. I stop crying and I start breathing normally. "Are you alright, Riley?" I hear Jonah say as he knocks on the door. "Yeah. She's fine." Corbyn said for me. "Good. Well, are you coming out? Cause we're gonna miss our flight." I hear daniel say. "In a sec." Corbyn said. I open my eyes and look at him. He smiles. "See, you're okay." He said. I nod as he holds my hand. "Do you wanna take something to help you calm down and sleep on the plane?" He asked me. I nod. "Okay. Here." He said as he hands me a pill. I take it and stand up. We walk out of the bathroom and the boys are still there. "You alright?" Zach asked me. I nod and he puts his arm around me, giving me a hug from the side.
When we get to the gate, we scan our tickets and get on the plane. We sit in our seats and put on our seatbelts. As soon as I sat down, I felt the pill starting to kick in. "Are you okay? You look a little off." Jonah asked as he sits next to me. I'm in between him and corbyn. I nod as my eyelids get heavier and heavier. I close my eye for a second before we take off.
"Riley." I hear. I open my eyes and see all the boys standing over me. "Are you okay?" Daniel asked me. I nod as I rub my eyes. I'm so tired that I feel weak. "Okay, good. We've been trying to wake you up for 10 minutes now." He said. I look around and see that no one else is on the plane and that we aren't flying anymore. "Where is everyone?" I asked. "They all left. Come on, we have to get off the plane." Jack said. I slowly stand up and we all get off the plane. "I thought you were dead." Zach said, laughing a little, trying to make me laugh to know that I'm okay. I fake laugh as we continue walking through the airport. The pill Corbyn gave me didn't help. It made me sleep but it just makes me feel weak and useless. "John just hit me up. He said we should throw a party tonight." Corbyn said. "I mean, I'm down." Jonah said. "Yes! I've been wanting to party for days." Daniel said. "Hell yes. I'm gonna invite chloe over." Zach said. "You should totally hit that." Jack said. "I'm gonna try, with consent, of coarse." Zach said. The boys all laugh as we walk out of the airport. "The Uber is already here." Corbyn said as we walk up to a car. We put our suitcases in the trunk and get into the car. "I'm not feeling so good." I said to corbyn. "What's the matter?" He asked. "I feel really dizzy and tired." I said. "We'll be home in 10 minutes." He said. I lay my head back and close my eyes.
10 minutes later, we get home. We grab all of our suitcases and walk into the house. "I'm gonna go to the store in a little bit to go get alcohol." Jonah said. Him and corbyn are the only ones old enough to buy some. "I'll go with you." Jack said. "Me too. I wanna get snacks and shit." Zach said. "Okay." Jonah said. "I'm gonna stay. Maybe take a nap." Daniel said. "Alright. Let's go." Jonah said to jack and Zach. They walk out the door and Daniel lays down on the couch. "Ugh I'm so jet lagged." He said. "Me too. I'm gonna go to sleep." I said. "Okay. But can I ask you something?" He said. "Sure." I said. "Are you okay with me sleeping with you even though we're broken up? Because I can get a new bed and share a room with one of the boys." He said. I laugh. "You're so sweet but you don't have to do that. If you're uncomfortable with sleeping with me, I can stay on the couch. I honestly wouldn't care either way." I said. "No, I like sleeping with you. Even if we aren't having sex." He said. I smile. "Me too." I said. "Oh my god." Daniel said. Me and corbyn laugh. "Okay. I'm gonna go to bed." I said. "Okay." Corbyn said. I walk into his room and lay down on his big bed. It's cold because it hasn't been slept in in weeks. I close my eyes and fall asleep.
